udah lama tidak berblogging. hahaa. i have so much to say but too lazy to write.=D i think the laziness correlate with my weight. i have been gaining so much weight for the past few years especially after the miscarriage 4 yrs ago and that contribute to my laziness. Denial. hahaa. Any RCT done for this hypothesis?i bet the p value must be less than 0.05 and it is statistically significant. hahaha. Anyway anyway today i want to talk about mom's guilt. sebab sudah lama tidak berblogging i have to re-introduce myself. hahaha. i am a pretty mother to 2 lovely kids..kakak isha is 6 years old and adik nina is 5 years old. they r my very precious kids and i love them sooooooo muchh!!!

i am the typical asian mom but always in denial so i send my kids to brainy bunch. it is a montessori kindergarten. so basically the kids will play around and they will initiate their learning process. Tiada paksaan dalam belajar. And there is no EXAM. NO TEST! its a good thing for the kids u know. kakak isha is a very hardworking little girl so she catch up very quickly. But nina, being the youngest and being the boss of our house kan so not as hardworking as kakak isha. Last month it come to my sense that she is entering 6 years old and she needs to know how to read properly, do math quickly and learn everything very fast like her big sister. So i push her by sending her to kumon and asked her to finish her worksheet very first. At first she did it very quick and we were quite impressed. Tapi me menjadi tamak so push her harder. My voice getting stronger by days and i used more punishment instead of rewards. (punishment = face the wall longer. normally less than 1 min je sebab mommy cepat kesian but this time 3-4mins gitu). After that i realized her performance deteriorated. She cannot even differentiate between 14, 40, and 44!!!I was so worried and very anxious. Many things came to my mind. I even perform full neurological examination on her. All the cranial nerves and had her eyes checked. But everything turned out to be normal. 

One day i just let her did her Kumon sheet with her sister and i can see that she can do the worksheet very fast and got every answer correctly. Then something came to my mind!I am the one who suppressed her!!!yes!because ive been so pushy and hard on her, she cannot perform!luckily i realize it earlier!alhamdulillah. Memang menangis semahunya la mommy sebab push her and suppressed her. Now ive been very soft with her and use rewards instead of punishment. Nasib la kedai RM2 tu dekat je so murah je reward.hehehe. She progresses very quickly now and im so proud of her. Kumon sheets tu mmg tak payah suruh and iqra pon dh start concentrate dah. alhamdulillah.

What doesnt kill you will make u stronger.

Mmed internal medicine

I am sorry for the long silence.it has been a very busy year for me..banjir kelantan 2014 was the worst thing ever.. My house was affected..pindah rumah my aunty at lundang before realised that tali air belakang rumah melimpah and went to kubang kerian..after a night in kubang kerian air start naik from sg dekat area pasir hor..then went to gunong for few days..

Oncall was pretty bad..balik rumah letih everyday..at the same time need to start study for the exam in april..

So mmed..i just want to give a friendly advice to my fellow friends/juniors.. Mmed is not easy..our master programme took us at least 4 yrs to complete and according to recent statistic, only 30% grad on time..so u can  imagine how difficult it is..we were given cuti bergaji penuh but mind u its not bercuti at all..ur cuti is basically limited to 14 days per sem..and u need to work everyday plus oncall as per scheduled.. Pergi kelas only during intensive course and tu pon some hosp kene oncall as well..exam?thats the critical part..

For part 1, int medicine..we were divided into 2 part; theory and clinical..some of the hosp allowed study leave but some didnt..it actually up to ur head of dpmnt../

So for us in our hospital we were allowed a week study week during theory exam and only 1 day during our clinical exam..

Masa exam theory 6 of us sangkut from 23..then masa clinical exam pulak only 6 of us passed..6 out of 23..so u can imagine how tough it is..but thats because we want to be a physician so we need to be really good...

utk amik exam tu only God knows how much tears shedded and how big the sacrifice made..so guys u really really need to be tough..and for clinical exam practice, practice, practice..

Banjir kelantan - updated

Alhamdulillah my brother sampai rumah dgn selamat..ade luka2 sket and terhantuk kepala..other than that sakit badan je lah lawan arus kan..plus die berpaut kat pokok for 2 hours before bantuan sampai..both of them were traumatised..my father pon traumatised..mende tu happened around 630am..gelap gelita..mad saw usop dibawak arus but he couldnt do anything..die sempat pegang my cousin iskandar je from kene hanyut sebab iskandar pun jatuh..he was lucky sebab terhantuk pokok and sempat pegang kat pokok tu..masa nak angkat badan naik pokok tu memang susah sangat die kata sebab air too laju..tapi Allah nak selamatkan dia lagi..alhamdulillah..

Hari ni banjir dah makin surut..we havent gone to rantau panjang yet today tapi hoping that everything will pulih soon..i should be in kuala lumpur today for my close friend's wedding tapi cancelled sebab tak sampai hati nak tinggal my dad and my brothers..my father was really traumatised sebab he was informed that he already lost his son..2 hrs almost 3 baru ade org call cakap his son was safe...alhamdulillah..

Banjir besar kelantan 2014

Banjir besar kelantan this year..hujan sehari setengah je tapi cepat sangat2 air naik..i warned my dad yesterday pm cakap kuala krai dh banjir..die dh prepare ke angkat barang semua kat kedai kat rantau panjang.die kata dah.but around pukul 130am he received a call kata air dh masuk bandar rantau panjang..bergegas die pergi sana sorang2 sebab nak tgk situasi mcm mana.. usually kalau naik air pon sikit je..kul 4 lebih die call mintak bantuan my brothers.both of them pergi..naik hyundai matrix..dh agak tinggi la kalau kire..pastu sampai gual tinggi rantau panjang takleh masuk sebab air tinggi sangat..they patah balik pergi amik hilux my cousin kat pasir mas..then sampai rantau panjang 2 adik beradik tu with cousin iskandar n bibik..air separas pinggang tapi arus sangat laju..my brother asked bibik to stay behind takut bibik tak larat nak lawan arus..diorg bertiga pergi lawan arus to my dad's shop..masa tu around 5am plus then i didnt hear anything from them sampai kul 930..diorg kata line putus2 sebab hujan lebat sangat kat sana..masa tu sejak kul730 i call diorg x angkat..i pergi keje dgn tak senang hati..kejap2 tgk hset nak tgk berita diorg...called my dad my dad suara sedih n stress n few times x angkat phone..my gut feeling said something bad happened..bukan setakat barang kene air ni..and kul 11 my dad finally called saying that my brother kene hanyutkan air laju..tgh mintak org carikkab..masa tu ya Allah tuhan saja yang tahu betapa luluhnya jantung ni..masa tu nak start meeting department..i asked my boss nk balik nak pergi rantau panjang cari my brother.. I ran home and was crying all the way home..then i got a call again from my father cakap alhamdulillah usop, mad and iskandar selamat..usop hanyut tapi ahamdulillah die tersangkut kat pokok and ade pakcik tlg selamatkan die..ahamdulillah..mad dgn iskandar pulak sempat pegang sesama diorg and berjaya diselamatkan oleh people around them..i called my sister in laws both to explain the situation..they rushed home..aisyah at klinik kesihatan bachok kene rentas hujan jugak n banjir nugak..while sarah plak dekat same hospital with mine cuma different department...mad n iskandar alhamdulillah selamat dok dgn my dad and my uncle sebab ade bot boleh pergi to kedai my father from their location..cuma usop sampai ke saat ini still kat rumah pakcik yang tolong dia tu and trapped with another 5 people inside..dah call bomba tapi bomba x dapat pergi sebab arus kuat sangat..now pukul 6pm still  kat sana awaiting tentera pulak.. Ya Allah ya Rabbi kau selamatkan lah adik2ku, ayah ku, kaum keluargaku dan semua rakyat kelantan..semoga semua selamat..tolong doakan semuA

lamenye tak update

Huwaa lamenye tak update blog..
hehe..busy yang amat..mother with 2 kids kan..
plus stress asek buat roster subrotation and oncall..
tak campur dgn case reports, presentation, audits etcetera..
penat yang amat..
balik rumah usually main dgn my double princess and layan diorg..
marissa is 2years plus already..
banyak words dah and dah paham banyak benda...
benda paling x best and will always be my worst nightmare "mommy jangan lah work, pleasee?"
huwaaa hancur luluh hati ni...huhu
tapi mommy kene kuat semangat..mommy nak jadi doktor yang baik..
yang ikhlas tolong pesakit2...insyaAllah..
keje memang stressful but sometimes rasa sangat best..macam hari ni kat klinik i met my previously critically ill patient..i thought she wont make it..tapi alhamdulillah kuasa Allah..
She was admitted with severe dengue...yes dengue boleh membunuh ya..remember that!
She had underlying thallasemia not on regular packed cell transfusion. She came in on day 2 of fever with rapid decline in her hemoglobin which means in other word- occult bleed somewhere..Apart from that she had metabolic acidosis and plasma leakage...She was ventilated in ICU with high ventilatory setting and requiring 4 inotropic support. Her kidneys shut down and she required CVVH- a method of dialysis.. Tapi alhamdulillah berkat doa her parents and semua kite dapat wean off her from ventilator and also dialysis. Dialysis buat total 6x je if im not mistaken...
Today she came to our clinic all smiling..Rasa happy yang amat sangat..I told her u almost make me cried before...memang masa tu i almost nak nangis pon sebab tgk parents die nangis..she is 20years old. still young kan?
Benda macam ni lah yang buat im happy with all the workload, stress and everything.. even sometimes they didnt really know and remember us tapi tgk they walk and smile macam buang segala jenis penat lelah and the feeling is so beautiful that words couldnt describe it..
hehe..
ok from today on ill write regularly in my blog..hehe...take care!

dengue

I have been very busy lately..
dengue naik mendadak2...
so far we had 3 official wards opened for dengue plus 2 minor wards...
memang hurricane kat hrpz ni..
dengue=medical..
therefore tahu2 la kan camne kiteorg..
lintang pukang..keje memang penat sangat2 rase..
dengue is simple...the treatment is water..so kasi drip je..
but dengue sangat tricky..
tak kasi patient boleh meninggal..
terlebih kasi may lead to fluid overload..
so u need to be really careful with ur drip..
disebabkan keterukkan yang melanda ni kiteorg terpaksa pinjam HO and MO from other department...
terpaksa jugak tambah oncall people jadi 5 orang per night..
bayangkan in a night kiteorg dapat 25 dengue MALE admission...in one night!bare in mind ni after office hour..
Rase nak terpengsan tak?
And dengue ni nak kene review very frequent..so kadang2 dok kat meja staff nurse sementara menunggu next review..
my friend yesterday terpaksa bukak puasa dgn air kosong sahaja sebab tak sempat nak g cari diet org oncall and tak sempat nak kirim makanan..plus tak berani nak tinggal patient...
tapi ape lah nak dibandingkan dengan penderitaan rakyat di palestin kan?
mereka lagi teruk nak dibandingkan dgn kite...
makan, tidur, mandi, beribadat semuanya tak tenang..
mereka boleh syahid bila2 masa sahaja...
semoga mereka dirahmati oleh Allah swt dan mendapat kegembiraan di akhirat sana...
kita yang masih aman damai ni despite the crime rates yang meningkat, penyakit yang bertambah, etc kite still ade our family utk bukak puasa bersama, tdo bersama n solat bersama...

Medical certificate

Last week i received a call from a clerk of srk xx. Its not normal for me to receive a call from a school clerk. Kalau from hospital biase la kan or bank ke org tipu kredit kad ke or maybe kalau frm srk zainab 2 pon mungkin tak pelik sangat. Ni sekolah jenis kebangsaan. Macam pelik lah kan. Memang lah plan nak hantar my beloved princess to srk jenis kebangsaan tapi bukan lah that particular school. She was asking me regarding one medical certifiate issued by me a few days before. Memang my signature and my cop kat situ cuma yang diorg pelik ade orang potong "satu" hari tu n tulis "dua" hari. That particular mc was issued by me from klinik.

Weird.

Jarang i potong mc. N tak penah lagi so far kalau patient kat klinik i kasi mc for two days. Unless stroke and tu pon bukan dua hari lagi. Obviously lagi lama. I almost kene tumbuk dgn patient dulu kot sebab taknak kasi mc. Saya sangat kedekut mc sebab for me kalau setakat selsema tu tak payah la kot mc. I takde suara pon tak mc biar demam bagai separuh nak collapse pon. Waktu hyperemesis gravidarum dulu pon i still went to hospital and buat keje with plastic dalam poket and branula on hand. Siap oncall lagi.

Eh anyway berbalik kepada yang tadi. Pelik kan?so i went to clinic and tgk buku mc tu. Sah! Memang sah saya tulis sehari sahaja. Waktu tu serba salah. Should i help her? Kalau saya tak tolong die camne kalau die kene tindakan tatatertib? Kesian pulak die nanti? Then i fikir jugak kalau saya tolong dia bukan ke bermaksud saya tidak amanah? Saya bukan setakat berdosa dgn majikan dia, murid2 dia tapi saya pecah amanah maksudnya saya berdosa dgn Allah jugak. Bayangkan kalau anak2 saya one of the murid dalam kelas tu? Cikgu tak datang mengajar? Rugi sedikit ilmu kan? Oleh itu dgn teragak2 saya call balik and tanya ada tak initial saya and sama tak tulisan tu which of course lah tak sama n takde initials pon. Saya pon terpaksa bercakap benar and i know truth hurt but kalau saya berbohong?and cikgu tu actually tak amanah jugak. Kalau betol or katakanlah dia memang sakit, she should have gone to any of the clinics to have a check up again. Betol tak?

Alhamdulillah

Saw one patient today.. 14y.o malay boy..admitted for acute exacerbation of bronchial asthma..this is his 3rd admission within a month..3rd in a month..can u imagine?

He stays with his grandmother. His father passed away when he was 7 due to road traffic accident. He is the second from 3 siblings. 2 other siblings stays with mother. Mother stay separately with grandmother. Grandmother is not working so as his mother. Hidup diorg bagai kais pagi makan pagi n kais petang makan petang. Grandmother cakap makan minum mengharapkan ehsan orang. Rumah diorg duduk sekarang ni rumah sendiri tetapi tanah kerajaan. Bila2 masa diorg akan kene halau. Makan minum mengharapkan ehsan orang. Before this that boy's asthma ok je but this month attack mmg sangt frequent. Reason? There is new construction going on around his house. Ade kerja angkut pasir etcetera. Unfortunately this boy has severe allergic reaction towards dust.. Tu yang jadi frequent attack. Grandmother takleh nak afford nak cari rumah lain dgn kudrat die..mother pulak sebab dah menumpang rumah org lain takleh la nak bawak balik anak die yg ni tinggal sekali.

A very difficult situation for all of them.. Grandmother cakap sometimes nak makan nasi sekali sehari pon susah..

I almost cried..Ramai lagi orang hidup susah dari kita.

Kita semua senang. Ade facilities banyak. Makan minum pon boleh pilih nak makan ape..kalau tak sedap terus taknak makan..

Jahatnya kita kan?membazirnya kita?

Ape perasaan mereka kan?

Rasa diri ni kerdil sangat..

Semakin tua diri ni rasa semakin rasa jahatnya diri ini..

Banyak benda yang kene berubah.

InsyaAllah slowly.. Sikit demi sikit..

Doakan saya ye..

I want to change to be a better person..

InsyaAllah..

The best thing

The best thing of being a working mom is when u come home and ur baby running towards you sambil jerit "yeay yeay mommy yeay yeay mommy alik"..

The feeling is just so ~heaven..

All d stress, d tiredness and everything just fade away in a blink of eye..

Im so in love with my babies..

Mommy promise mommy will work hard for both of u..mommy will try to be the best mother for both of u..mommy is not perfect but mommy will try everything to be perfect..

I love u..

I love u thousands..

I love u millions..

I love u infinity..

I love u forever..

Alhamdulillah..thank u Allah for this gift..

Alhamdulillah

Latest update

Lamenye la tak post..

Banyak sangat social media skrg ni..

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 So many things happened recently..

Alhamdulillah banyak perkara yang telah berlaku dalam hidup ini sekaligus mematangkan diri sendiri..

Sedar tak sedar my husband dah resign from goverment..he owns his private practice Klinik Primer Cherang..facebook die @primercherang.And he owns his own company yang buat paramedic standby, ambulance transfer etcetera..kalau ade yang nak organise Basic Life Support pon boleh try contact die..email him at klinikprimercherang@gmail.com..basicallyhes away 9am-10pm every single day and that includes weekend..cuma friday my husband bukak lambat sikit cuz pagi is our family time..so kalau nak oncall or weekend round mmg i takkan oncall on friday..to maximise our precious time together, he send me to hospital every single day except during i oncall lah..and balik pulak sometimes especially postcall he will come and pick me up and send me home..kalau hari kerja biasa yang i tak perlukan de-stress therapy i jalan kaki je balik rumah..malam after magrib if i ade masa ill bring my kids to his clinic to spend time with his daddy..alhamdulillah walaupon masa sedikit we love each other so much..marissa is always daddy's girl..kalau takde daddy baru pergi kat mommy..kalau tak mesti nak daddy je..mommy and daddy pulak occasionally keluar dating together2.walaupon kejap we try to spend time with each other..and kalau ade sekali we will try to perform our solat together..kadang2 marissa join together..adik baby still kecik so still xle nak join..hehe..

Qasrina nadhira pulak dah 6months..alhamdulillah even with the oncalls and everything i dapat completekan 6months exclusive breastfeeding..alhamdulillah..banyak cabaran even tak seteruk masa marissa dulu..susu dah start kurang tapi ill try for d sake of my baby..qasrina 6months but shes also a fast learner..shes able to sit unsupported, crawling and holding her own bottle..die dah boleh sebut bababa and dah ade stranger's anxiety..alhamdulillah..

Qaisara marissa pulak dah 2 y.o.. Mula2 ingatkan nak buat big party for her then rasa membazir pulak baik i simpan duit tu utk beli benda lain..seee..im a grown-up already..hahahhaa...marissa as usual active..suka lari and suka kacau adik die..kalau pampers basah sikit "daddy acah".."mummy acah" sambil bukak seluar n pampers nak tukar..padahal baru basah sikit..hehe..and she can understand almost everything dah..her fav cartoon of course upin ipin..her fav nursery rhymes- ba ba black sheep..die x g nursery ke ape but boleh nyanyi lgu nursery sikit2 and able to count one to ten and satu hingga sembilan..cuma pelat la and tiga selalu tertinggal terus empat..jehhee..alphabets pon alhamdulillah dah banyak..she loves reading so aunties/uncles kalau nak kasi present boleh kasi buku kat dia..hehhee

N lastly mommy..mommy alhamdulillah maintain lagi..still bernafas..hehe..still suka shopping and now really love bokittahijab..hehe..lalallaallaala..

Bersarang

Aww bersarang sudah blog ni..

Alhamdulillah..klinik primer cherang is officially open..actually dh masuk 3rd months..im just so busy with my own life..Hehe..

And my husband pon dh ade ambulance sendiri..those yg nk gune service boleh lah contact no ni 019-9843999..

Interview

Interview mmed 2014/2015..

Sambil tu ambil peluang ronggeng kejap..

I started working again since 5th jan..sekejap sangat rasa masa berlalu.xpuas rasenye..

bridal review - kota bharu

hahaa..tak tahu nape tetibe rase nak review bridal kat kota bharu ni..muahhaa...tapi banyak experience jugak la ngan bridal kat area kb ni..

1. N'touch N'bride

this is owned by kakla and her famous daughter leuniey natasha..i review this bridal first sebab i amik dengan diorg from my engagement sampai la my reception kat rennaissance..masa tu leuniey tak femes lagi sebab tak kapel ngan apek lagi..hehe.tapi she's a beauty...kakla ni memang femes before anak die femes lagi and suke keje ngan die sebab die mudah nak deal..diorg mmg super busy lah kene booked awal kalau nak...masa engagement i tu luckily bukan musim org kenduri kendara so senang lah..while my wedding tu i booked 3months earlier...price die mmg setanding lah dengan hasil kerja die..overall mmg best.. baju die kiteorg rent jugak tapi i used rizalman punye collection for my engagement...my aunty bawak from kl..perlu diingatkan ye ini punye ceremony adalah 2009..hehehe..for my wedding lak solemnization punye baju from mama butik while reception punye baju from dato' roy..alamak gambar wedding dalam portable hard disc..hehehe..amik gambar fb..mekap masa engagement tu done by my auntie..simple je cuz i dont like heavy mekap..natural beauty kan..muahahaha....but then masa solemnization and reception done by kakla...die bagi option nak mekap done by her or leuniey..i tgk hasil keje kakla ni classic sikit so i chose kakla..hehehe...yg masa solemnization tu mmg heavy sikit kat area mata tu..malu sikit tapi masa reception walla!speechless..hahaha..ok perasan... tapi my wedding reception sume tu alhamdulillah my aunty banyak tolong jugak..shes an interior designer so mmg tiptop jugak lah...hehe...utk area kb yg agak limited resources die tu kire ok lah...my aunty bawak doorgift for vip from kl..hantaran punye gambar sume dalam external hard dics..tapi kalau amik pon x la secantik yg zaman skrg punye..hehe..tapi still i love it so much...=)

2. Ratu brides..
tauke die ni abg wan..die penah keje ngan ntouch nbride and few others lagi before decided nak bukak on his own..sebab my mom nak kan variety so my brother punyer die amik from ratu brides ni...sekarang tak tahu la still exist atau dah pindah..before this die kat first station kb...first floor tapi signboard macam dh takde..phone number pon ilang..service die pon tiptop jugak and price die not bad la...banyak jugak die kasi less sebab die nak promote kedai die jugak waktu tu...siap tolong buat gubahan bunga biasa kat rumah i ni..

Pelamin die simple je my mom pilih sebab my brother xnak yg grand sangat...hantaran sume amik ngan die..yg kat rumah i simple sebab menyambut menantu punye hantaran tak secantik masa wedding kat rumah my sis in law..hehe..baju die pon not bad lah..mekap die pon ok jugak tapi bukan mekap by him la sebab my sis prefer its done by a woman..anyway ratu brides ni pon sama macam ntouch nbride..puas hati...hehe..=)

3. Harharah bridal
Yang ni kiteorg amik masa engagement my sis...actually wedding my brother sorang lagi pon nak amik ngan die but cancelled...adelah sebabnye..harharah ni during my time i xpenag pergi pon kedai die...tapi first impression towards bridal ni very bad lah...janji nak jumpe kul 3 kat kedai die but she arrived at 5..so bad first impression..i dont like people yang x punctual..buang masa 2 hrs..ok berfikiran positif maybe die busy..she called saying that shes in traffic jam..but kota bharu ni takde la busy macam kl yang ade standstill traffic jam...jarang2 sekali n it usually occured during hari raya holiday...masa tu bukan hari raya pon..and been a doctor myself i was trained to be punctual..belaja kat negeri omputih some more lagi la...remember one second did make a difference tau..nyway sebab dh bad first impression makanya lepas tu semua benda pon jadi berbekas kat hati...kesimpulannya wedding yg nak amik ngan die cancelled..i lah yang over mintak my mom cancelled everything...hehe..pelamin utk engagement tu kiteorg touch-up balik and siap pergi beli karpet and kain lain..seb baek ramai yg berbakat jugak in our family...hehehe...tapi maybe salah kiteorg jugak.kiteorg booked last minute kot...adik ipar i decide lambat sangat nk masuk meminang bile..hehehe...so maybe salah kiteorg jugak lah..bukan solely their fault lah pelamin tu cuma kalau die lebih punctual next time tu mungkin takdela berbekas sangat dalam hati...

4. Iena bridal
this one mmg recommended sama macam n touch n bride tu...tuan empunya die mmg baik hati lah and senang nak deal..mmg my cousin punye wedding yg kat gua musang tu pon amik dengan die this coming march ni...harga die boleh dirunding...wedding my brother asraf and my sister ijah both amik dengan die sebab my mom sangat puas hati...nak dijadikan cerita masa wedding my sis tu ade hujan lebat sampai pelamin runtuh lepas majlis akad nikah..masa tu dh kul 11malam but diorg sanggup datang baiki pelamin tu..pukul 2pagi baru siap..service mmg superb...mmg highly recommended..mekap pon cantikkk...baju2 die pon cantik...showroom die besar dekat jpj panji..banyak pakej die tawarkan...so silalah..hehehe...

5. Teguh bridal
Yang ni i amik masa akikah qasrina aritu..i amik buaian die..harga boleh dirunding and tuan empunya pon baek hati..ni menurut my husband lah sebab i x pergi..al maklum tengah berpantang..and ni lagi last minute...3 hari before majlis decide..ehehehe...seb baek die sanggup..=)

bridal lain macam thalia bridal, suzanna's bridal banyak yg kiteorg pergi survey...hehehe..tapi yg kat atas je yg ade experience..so tak berani nak komen lebih lah..hehehe..thalia tu i pinjam selendang waktu majlis menyambut menantu i...baik la orangnya...masa majlis menyambut menantu i my mil amik pelamin dengan org yg buat landscape..baju lak my grandma beli kat indon..mekap lak done by my aunty..hehe..=)

Ikea

Lame gile dah ok x update..busy sangat2 skrang ni helping my husband set up his new clinic..tapi yg bestnye we always with each other this past month..seronok sangat shopping together, jalan2 together, uruskan both princess together, makan2 together etcetera..pasni he will b busy with his clinic and im busy with my job..for the first 6months ni mmg kene sabar banyak2 cuz its gonna be tough..hopefully we will survive it..insyaAllah..

Jalan2 without kids

Yeay!!i kat penang ni without d kids..

Rindu qaisara marissa n qasrina nadhira already!

Rindu qasrina bf!

Takpe mommy dh bekalkan qasrina sayang stok ebm..esok insyaAllah kite jumpe k sayang?mommy loves both of u so much!!!

Mommy kat sini makan kaw2.nasi kandaq, iced caramel macchiato n mcm2 lagi..hehe..abisss r pasni..kene g gym!

D32 - one month old today

Yayyy qasrina nadhira dah satu bulan ari ni!!yayyy..alhamdulillah..hari ni adik qasrina taknak tdo..semalam from 1am sampai 4am xnak tdo..then tdo sampai 8am and tak tdo sampai kul 2pm..mommy nk bertungku pon takleh sebab as usual semua org pon ingat qasrina nak susu..hehe..padahal xnak susu pon..takpe la hopefully malam ni tdo nyenyak tak kacau mommy tdo..asek oncall everyday penat jugak mommy..siang hari lak tak sempat nak tdo..too many things to read and google..hehe..

And to my suprise semalam husband balik bawakkan naked pallete..memula die kata takde sekali actually ade cuma nak suprisekan je..hehe..tq syg..muahxx..love u!!now im looking for sigma brushes..nak beli mac mahal sangat kot utk brushes lgpon xcomel..i suke sigma yg bunny collection tu..colourful..but i want to wait till christmas sebab hristmas nnt mesti lg murah..sigma boleh beli online from website die and die antar shipping kat malaysia..yay!!!i dont know why maybe hormonal kot tapi asek rs nak melaram je..hehe..and rs nak travelling jugak..tapi yelah husband busy so susah la jugak nak travel..huhu..tapi xpe..yg bestnye husband dh tak oncall so boleh jumpa everyday kalau sy x oncall nanti and tak risau sangt kalau oncall nak tinggal qaisara marissa and qasrina nadhira..

Actuallykan sampai skrg kiteorg xle decide nak panggil ape qasrina nadhira ni.. Husband sukekan nadhira and myself tak kisah..aunties qasrina suke qasrina..i preferably nak panggil die erin sebab i love erin since i was in secondary school lagi..my email dulu pon adek_erin.. Hehe..so far kiteorg panggil die adik baby..hehe..okla ye tak?hehe..kiteorg aim maximum 3 org je..2 org pon dh cukup my husband bitau..die kate die kesian kat i kalau pregnant lg sekali..sweetkan?xpe kalau nak bb sorang lg pon at least 4-5years lg..ngeee

D31- maruku

Happy deepavali everyone..sempena deepavali ni marilah kite ramai2 makan maruku..hehe..my mom beli maruku kat kenanga aritu mmg sedapp..abis satu plastic dlm dua hari je..then beli kat tesco aritu xsedap..pastu my mom beli kat mane tah maruku kt kb ni tp sedap lah..cuma x best die campur kacang..i noticed after i makan apam balik aritu n peanuts qasrina mcm sakit perut sikit..sama macam kakak die..so nak taknak kene try avoid makan kacang..so nak taknak tadi makan maruku and so mommy asingkan kacang satu2 as in the picture..hehe..demi kasih kepada qasrina..xpe kacang tu kakak die amik makan n buang merata2..qaisara marissa mmg lah..hehe..

I dont know why but my temptation to eat sangat tinggi lah this time..mmg i couldnt stop from eating..dh abis makan nasi pon kenyang pon g cari snek jugak nak makan..sebab nak avoid makan nutela n cream crackers terpaksa la makan mende len seperti kuih muih..hahhaa..tadi my auntie kirim kuihche mek..makan abis sampai satu pinggan..hahaaha.aiyoyo..and semalam antar gambar kat my cousin and she said i look berisi.aiyo..logically berat still maintain 41-42kg..lepas makan paling tinggi pon 42.7..pre-pregnancy weight la tu..masa kat ireland berat maintain 44kg.. Takpe maybe lepas start keje ni letih n busy sampai turun berat badan..hehe..

Hari tu masa day7 ke day berape tah my weight was only 39kg!sooo underweight ok!!!

Anyways, semalam kelantan kalah final piala malaysia..sedih betol..takpe la takde rezeki..tapi mcm pelik sikit tgk players main..papepon they must tried really hard dh kan semalam?mesti diorg pon nak menang so congrats for their effort..takde rezeki..next yr cuba lagi eventhough harapan tipis sebab dgr cite banyak players kelantan pg team lain..tukar angin kot?or something wrong with the management?wallahualam..

Pasni nak pergi amik my beloved husband kat airport..he went to kl this morning sebab ade meeting..mintak die pergi sephora carikkan urban decay naked pallete 2 tapi takde huwaaaaaa.. Out of stock!!!sadis tak???anyone kt overseas nak tolong belikan tak?nak jugak nak jugak!!husband cakap ade 2 pages booking list kat sephora sunway tu..hukhukhuk..kuciwa..salesgirl tu ckp die akan call once stok sampai..persoalan die sempat ke nk g kl beli mende tu?huhu..

Marissa pulak on the other hand pergi jalan2 dgn aunty malyn n eshue..seronoknyaa!mommy pon rs macam nak pergi park jugak enjoying myself..banyak mende nak buat..nak g hair saloon, spa, shopping and shopping lagi, honeymoon with husband and the lit goes on..hikhikhik

d30 fareeda nyata jelita

hahhaa..baru semalam cakap frustrated x dapat beli fareeda seindah ikatan cinta tu kan?hahaha..tahu tak lepas je published entry tu dh dapat booked and beli tudung tu..alhamdulillah..harga pon xdela mahal sangat sampai 198.hahaha...alhamdulillah tapi confirm la tudung tak sampai sampai at least wednesday ni memandangkan kelantan cuti sampai selasa..huhu..anyway aktiviti arini adalah jalan2..hehehe..went to tanti's engagement ceremony tapi yang ngoknya tak amik gambar ngan makcik tu..husband rushing nak g rumah malyn..hehehe...makan nasi gulai daging..ingatkan nak makan nasi himpit dengan kuah kacang and kelapa ape tah-tak sure nama...tapi ayah tanti cakap boleh ke makan?bukan tak boleh ke?hahaahhaa...
memang ignorance is a bliss..haha..ala pantang pon tgk ramai je org2 yg kene rheumatism/arthritis masa tua?so sama je..im ready to accept the fact..hahaha..cuma xnak gemuk je..my mother in law anak 5 and now still slim and cantik..so as my mom and my nenek pon..i need to be like them..
tapi harapan la sebab makan chocolate kek abis satu bekas arini..muahahahaha,,,pastu makan pulak nasi dagang sampai tambah2...hahahaha..lalalala..
adik baby lak semalam taknak tdo cuma seb baek die tak nangis so mommy sangat penat..huhu...seb baek arini mommy cakap kat bibik xyah buat breakfast sebab nak makan oat je...so boleh bgn lambat sikit kul 9..kalau x mmg kene bangun kul 8 makan..lepas tu takkan nak tdo kan?huhu

D29 fareeda nyata jelita

Nowadays i'm so into fareeda..start masa pregnant kat qasrina aritu..memang dok follow re-sellers fareeda..hari ni lak launch fareeda nyata jelita seindah ikatan cinta..mmg tgk sekali terus jatuh cinta kat sweetlove kaler maroon yg mawar pakai masa fizo proposed die..

So since early morning lagi dok depan facebook..tgh bertungku ni pon ade my ipad mini, ipad marissa and my iphone kat sebelah..asyik dok refresh fareeda punye group yg jual tudung tu..prepare all the gadjets just in case my iphone run out of battery..hehe..tapi unfortunately tak dapat pon..each time msg seller tu even die baru post just a minute dah underbooked/sold..frustrated betol.. So sampai skrg x dapat..sob sob..

Tapi kan kalau kat i was in bangi pon this morning i would not go to fareeda punye butik pon..gile ramai manusia and panjang queue die..tak larat kot and my husband pon takkan pergi punye..hehe..

So sebab skrg xdapat beli n i believe dah abis pon stok u kat butik die in a positive way duit selamat n boleh beli new sunglasses..ok yes its monsoon season kat kelantan tapi nak jugak sunglasses baru ganti my coach shades yg ilang dulu tu..nak kirim kat my cousin yg kat us sebab mak die nak pergi us november nnt..so bolh la mak die bawak balik nnt..yayy to me..

So now ape keburukan pantang?u have so much free time that u will spend lotsa time in front of ur computer/ipad/iphone and tershopping lah..hahaha..i bought so many things already cuma unfortunately kelantan cuti smpai selasa so wednesday la kot baru sampai..bought new cardigan from fashionvalet and new tops from few other website..ade satu skirt ni nama edora from zawara.com..i nak beli tapi tunggu husband balik nak tanye opinion..sekali masuk website tu balik kaler itam dh takdeeee..sedihh jugak..terpaksa la mintak tukang jahit jahitkan mcm tu jugak..hehe..

Nyway qasrina is doing really good..alhamdulillah..marissa pon alhamdulillah dh start ok ngan her new maid..daddy lak busy setup his new clinic..alhamdulillah..doakan kami semua murah rezeki..i shall upload d1-d27 qaseina punye entry soon..hehe..