Friday, August 26, 2011

adaptation

Im enjoying medical!haha crazy.yes i am crazy..actually i think i have a problem with adaptation..i have difficulty in accepting new environment.after a month im beginning to love medical.of course i miss a&e.if i am given anothet chance to choose,of course i will choose a&e.i just love the adrenaline rush that will b released when attending a pt in a&e.its so exciting..
I have great colleagues in medical..i just love it..haha

adaptation

Im enjoying medical!haha crazy.yes i am crazy..actually i think i have a problem with adaptation..i have difficulty in accepting new environment.after a month im beginning to love medical.of course i miss a&e.if i am given anothet chance to choose,of course i will choose a&e.i just love the adrenaline rush that will b released when attending a pt in a&e.its so exciting..
I have great colleagues in medical..i just love it..haha

Thursday, August 18, 2011

hopefully

Life is getting better..
asalkan x oncall ok la..
kalau oncall mmg teruk lah rase..
i do love medical..
i was purposedly requested to be posted in medical..
tapi environment kat situ kurang memberangsangkan sket..
but my colleagues told me pekakkan telinga, keraskan hati..
jadi robot..
then ull do well in medical..
haha hopefully ill do well in medical..hopefully..

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

stress lagi

Woke up with teary eyes this morning..
Luckily i have my husband who is very supportive and lovely..
He told me not to go to hospital if i dont want to..
Of course i dont want to but i dont want to have such bad record in my personal file..
I was so demotivated at the moment..
I think its hormonal..
Ist trimester kan..
Nak cope ngan my nausea n vomitting in pregnancy lagi..
Haih..
Im so exhausted physically,emotionally n mentally..
Lame2 boleh jadi gila ni.hahhahaa
Jadi ho lagi best..

Friday, August 5, 2011

unhappy

Unhappy..
Exhausted..

I had finished my internship about 2 wks ago. It was a huge relief. Initially i was retained as a medical officer in emergency department.However my husband and myself thought that shift system doesnt really works for us. If i choose to stay in a&e i have to work in shift. Thus my husband called the office and asked to put my name in medical department. I was quite happy when i received a letter saying that i am a medical officer in medical department. At least i will have my weekends off and got to celebrate this raya with my precious. However a wk passed.. I am so unhappy... I am exhausted.. I am tired with the unnecessary rules. I am fed up with everything.
Its hard to see my smiles this past few days..
Its hard for me to laugh even the joke is really funny..
Its hard for me to get up early in d morning to go to work..
Its easy for me to shed my tears..
Its easy for me to become irritable...

Perhaps its hormonal..perhaps..
I dont know..
But i am unhappy.
I am usually good with my pts. But my communication skills seem disappeared like a blink of eyes..
I m no wonder a fav dr for my pt...
i used to be good but where i am at the moment?where?
I should have stayed...
My life in emergency department way better..
I have a good relationship with d specialist in etd.
I know what i should do in etd.
I love the adrenaline rush u would feel when u r looking after a pt in red zone. The moment u heard 4 bells ringing,-aah the feeling is so undescribable..
I enjoyed working in etd with those medical assistants and nurses.
I miss emergency trauma department...
How i wish i can turn back on the time....How i wish..


Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Medical officer

Wahhh sungguh lame x update..hehe.act8ually everyday ade tulis tapi takut nak publish.haha..takut ade org len terase.ngeee..nyways today i am officially a Medical Officer.hehe.no longer HO aka hamba orang..2 yrs of air mata, happiness, knowledge and experiences..
Actually nak masuk medical tapi boss suruh stay A&E. A&E not bad actually..it just that i dont like the shift system..mcm x best sebab cuti x sama dengan orang kan...
tapi the best thing is if i ade baby makanya everyday pon i jumpe baby i even oncall!!hehehe.:P