d94 : iphone 4 vs iphone 4s

samsung s3 is not my choice..
dh la mahal..
difference dengan samsung s2 xbanyak sangat pon..
xsuke sebab besar sikit even nipis pon..
am going for iphone..=D

exclusive breastfeeding

Next week dah start keje..
wondering if my ebm stock is enough for marissa..
kalau x oncall maybe cukup..
tapi oncall?
insyaAllah..
my milk production so far paling banyak 8oz..
tu pon early morning..
kalau petang mmg xsampai 3oz pon sometimes..
breastfeeding is not easy..
banyak challenges tapi kite kene kuat semangat and ikhlaskan niat..
insyaAllah..
utk dapatkan stok banyak ni i started to double pumping since my 1st week of pantang lagi..
i amik fenugreek everyday..
sometimes even minum moringa tea..
lepas tu minum plain water banyak2..
my mom suruh makan banyak2 jugak tapi im on diet.hahaha..
sebab experienced people cakap once berat badan dh naik memang sangat susah utk kurus balik..ngeeee
nyway hopefully ill be able to breastfeed marissa exclusively sampai 2 yrs..
insyaAllah..
sangat happy kot tgk die membesar dengan susu kite je..hehe..
and alhamdulillah sangat sebab my awesome husband pon fully support breastfeeding..
kalau sorang2 mmg dh lama give up ni..=)

d93 : oncall.

I am emotionally unwell..
I am going to start working again next week..
Sad.
Im going to leave marissa with her nanny for at least 8hrs/day
Not to forget if im oncall-36hrs.
uhuk uhuk..
worst-i have 10days and im oncall 5 times during that duration..
so u can do a simple math here..5 in 10days..so if we have 30days?15?ahahaha
what to do right?
crazy right?
but its my job. i have to do my job. i will do my job. im used to this before-minus a baby..
i hope my milk supply is enough for marissa cuz i want to exclusively breastfeed her..
i dont want to give cow's milk to her IF i have a choice...
doakan ye.

d92 3month old qaisara marissa

d91 red velvet cake + caramel chocolate cake

Sape tahu kat mane kat kota bharu ade jual cakes ni?i dont have time to bake those but i want those sooooooo badly!

d90 breakfast

I miss my dear marissa...
been away from her for only couple hours and miss her so much..
cant imagine how im going to start working again next week..

d89 pantang ais

orang2 tua cakap kene pantang ais sampai 100hari...opsss...saya sudah tersilap minum..hehe..mula2 buat tersilap je sampai sekarang dh curik2 minum..hahaha...orang2 tua cakap sebab sakit urat nanti waktu tua nanti..i dont really knw what sakit urat is..hehe..is it rheumatoid arthritis?ape2 pon i knw tua2 nanti ill get arthritis due to my sedentary lifestyle-no exercise at all + unhealthy diet..lagipon org yang pantang2 tu sakit je i tengok?hahah...
pastu campor lak ngan my friend yang cakap die pantang ais sampai 40 hari je so ??pastu husband lak suruh minum sebab die cakap skarang ni musim panas..wahahahaa....mula2 i buat2 terminum air sejuk masa pergi my brother's engagement aritu..since then asek "tersilap" minum jer...satu hari tu siap tersilap minum slurpee lagi..blame my husband..he bought the slurpee!hahaha..
tapi finally i xleh nak tahan dah..hehehe..tertewas kat rumah my uncle who invited us for a dinner..i think ive mentioned it before..masa pergi hantar suraya..which was hari ke 80 pantang..ehehe.. bibik die buatkan air sirap ais yang sangat masyuk..hahaha..lepas tu sebab alang2 kat kl i sangat x tahan dah....akhirnya tewas dengan ICED CARAMEL MACCHIATO...- my alltime fav..omaigodd!!meleleh air liur..hahaha....tewas dengan iced caramel macchiato!dh la caffeine kan?hehe...tapi i mintak single shot je...hehe...bile la nak g kl ni semata2 utk iced caramel macchiato?or bile lah nak ade starbuck kat kelantan ni?hehe..nak bukak sendiri malas franchise ni..eh tapi my dad is bringing new nespresso back home!my sweet and handsome brother bought it for us and its going to be real good coffee..yihaa!!!coffee addict unlike my husband..eh but still i need iced caramel macchiato not coffee!hahaha...
depan my parents esp my mom of course im not taking any cold drink tapi belakang die seperti semalam waktu dinner with my beloved uncles and grandmother, i was purposedly ordered a glass of carrot juice..hahahaha...=D
so no..im not strictly berpantang..masa 40 ai tu pon banyak mende jugak i curik2 makan..hahaha...

d88 3days back to back oncall

.::marissa with abg harith and abg hafy::.

.::qaisara marissa::.

Hubby wont be home till tomorrow evening..he has been sleeping in the hospital since thursday.. its the price u have to pay if u want to be a doctor..he has been doing back to back oncall since we've been transferred to hospital tanah merah..its really tiring..and the fact that u wont see ur loved ones for few days make it more tiring-mentally and emotionally..hubby is upset, so do i..and of course marissa..i knw she misses her daddy so much..she is all smiling when she hears daddy's voice..shes already recognize daddy and mommy's voice...im afraid to go back to work next week.im actually should be back to work by tomorrow but alhamdulillah im able to extend my leave after we met our pengarah...im afraid to go back as i knw once i go back to work ill be hecticly oncall and wont see marissa as much as i see her now..i wont be able to cuddle her and kiss her as much as i do at the moment..im gonna miss this moment...im afraid that once i start to oncall my baby wont recognize me anymore...im afraid that she;ll be more attached to my maid rather than me..=(.so sad..
U'll able to treat ur patients but not ur family..patients need u more than ur family...u r going to spend ur time more in d hospital rather than home...
its the sacrifice that u need to make once u decided to become a doctor...