tanak balik

Last week, I was saying to myself that i will definitely going back for my intern...
2 days ago i was telling husna, "InsyaAllah aku balik kot"
Yesterday I was telling Elaine, "I am 95% going back to Malaysia"
But today, I woke up with a thought of staying here...
Why?
I dont know but i think i am afraid of the pressure that I will get at home..
I am afraid of the question that people will keep on asking me.
"Bile nak kawen?"
hahaha..Few of my friends are getting married this month..Carey, jitt and Farah. And of course tempias die akan kene gak la..ahaha..kan?
And I am the eldest kan and people are waiting for that..
Plus my gedik cousin has got married kan?
My grandmother already bought 2 pasang kebaya labuci from indon satu set with a sandal for my engagement/merisik or whatsoever.
My auntie already told me few times that she wants to decorate my room for my wedding....
And my mum already bought few stuff for the engagement/wedding..
But u knw what?i dont have any idea who I am going to marry.
Hahhaha..
Owh if any of my relatives read this entry, could u pls tell everyone in our family that i dont want that sort of pressure?
U guys should knw me better.