Back to december - taylor swift

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while


You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time

H.O

Sedar tak sedar dah almost 2 yrs dah keje!
In 2 days time im going to enter my last posting as hamba orang(housemanship)
I will join A&E and with my best peeps over there hopefully ill enjoy my final posting..
Next?
i dont know where im heading to..
i love each posting that ive joined so far..
O&G - my first posting.posting yg sangat bz.u barely have a time to close ur eyes during this posting but then its so enjoyable.i love the fact that ive got a chance to improve my skills everyday...delivery a baby, doing episiotomy, repairing any tear, assisting in caesarian section-tiring but interesting...tot i would come back as specialist one day but i just let my beloved husband do that..hehehe..he has more skill in that specialty as compared to me...

Ortho : My second posting..who said ortho paling relaks?depends on hospital u r in kot..in my hospital rekod paling lambat i balik keje, ortho lah..kul 730pm while i was in charged of cempaka(male ward)..extension katil penuh gile.,katil patients was 40+ but on that time extension sampai ke pintu and total 50+!sampai kene mintak katil from other ward!ortho pon interesting jugak..i love doing procedure..paling best buat Ray's Amputation..kiteorg buat kat ward je kat kb ni sebab kalau nak g OT?mmg xsempat r..banyak cases n ot x cukup kan..so kiteorg bagi ankle block je..sometime i wasnt sure whether my ankle block was really effective or whether the patient had diabetic neuropathy doesnt feel anything at all..hehehe..n had a chance doing the plating of tibia on my own, k-wire on my own and few others made the posting so memorable..tapi when terfikir femur org i terus xnak lah amik ortho.berat woo..even tibia pon i susah gile nak reduce sebab berat!hahaha

Medical : Im so love this posting..even my boss pon cakap u should have come back to medical..u r so good and have a bright future in medical. head of department tu cakap camtu..rase bangga jap and mmg since i was at medschool lagi rase mcm nak amik medical but then when fikir ade ke masa utk myself nanti?i pon terfikir la nak ke xnak skarang ni.ari tu mmg fikir nak amik mrcp siap lagi.hahaha.cuz im pretty sure i dont want a lonely life-idup utk myself n career je..i want a life that is colourful and wonderful with all my family members...so will see..(i think my name is already up in medical actually because i was accidently told yes to one of the specialist)

Surgical : i hate surgery when i was a medical student but guess what?i LOVE surgery at the moment. i think appendicectomy, herniotomy and laparatomy is fun. u dont know what r u going to find when u open someone's abdomen and seriously its adventerous! i love surgical!having a chance to do appendicectomy as a surgeon myself made it more interesting and memorable.hehe..=)but when it came to think that ive to stand up for quite some time during operation which may lead to formation of varicose vein in the future made me think it again.hehe

Paeds: The most boring posting ever!tau tak even ABG pon HAMBA ORANG (H.O) ni kene amik..nurses rilek je goyang kaki makan colek sambil tgk buku avon..peewittt..hahaha..xsuke la..tambah tak suke when baby2 prem ni sometimes kene cucuk 2-3 kali or more utk amik blood..kesian kat dorang tapi xde blood result kan lagi teruk..tapi rase x best!yang best about this posting was i have best peeps around me and lunch break was so much fun!hehe..owh lagi xbest sebab ade minah indon keje kontrak yang menyuruh orang kerjenye yang die sendiri pon management tah pape..inform baby desat pon buat tatau..bodoh betol..tau x nanti bnyk complications!haish.

LAst posting a&e.mule2 ingat nak masuk anaes but thinking that anaes xkan tolong kalau g district nanti cuz ventilator machine takde pon kat district so masuk a&e lah..plus i bleh refresh everything balik preparing myself for my next responsibilities as MO..=)

finally..

After a yr...

Engagement Day


Solemnization 1st january 2010



Wedding Reception 2nd January 2011


*majlis menyambut menantu gambar takderlah!

benci

Hello peeps!!
Dah lame x update blog okeh!
rindu nak blogging tapi apekan daya hset x best nak tulis blog.
lagipon time oncall jonar sangat so xleh nak update blog.
anyone pernah dgr the word "jonar? or jonah?"
Most of the malaysian doctors tahu kot that word.
it means that doctor yang oncall tu "panas"
kalau die oncall maknenye patient ramai berderu datang, katil jadi penuh or the whole day mmg busy dengan resuscitating patients..
I am jonar while my hubby tak...
record admission 24 masa kat ortho..
bukan waktu cuti sekolah/raya ok!
hubby selalu pesan suruh solat hajat the night before oncall tapi solat pon mmg akan jonar..
usually org xnak oncall dgn org2 jonar ni..
tapi on the bright side kan i will learn more than others kan?
cuz i ive seen many different cases and attended more cases kan?
kan?
hehe
cume kene sacrifice sket la kul 2pagi dgn baju dari pagi lagi n perut kosong semua...
owh tapi there was one day when i was really tired of attended all cases-baby born flat, caesarian for acute fetal distress bla bla n tetibe ade sorang nurse ni perli i:-

"wah ade lagi dr lagi jonar dari Dr H"
then i replied;
"xpelah kak nak suruh belajar banyak lagi la tuh"
then die kate lagi,
"xbalik dah kite ari ni.keje tak settle2 lagi.balik ni mesti kene mandi bunga solat hajat semua"
and then i was like, thats it-minah nurse tu dok dalam ward jeeee i ni berlari dari ward, pergi labour room tukar baju pergi operation theathre non stop!!!n die selambe je perli i..then i told her;
"owh elok la kak.solat taubat sekali la mintak Allah ampunkan dosaa2 yang bertimbun tu"
and die of course la senyap tak terkata lah.hahaha
padan muke.