today

lapar2..tengah tunggu nasi masak nak buat nasi goreng then mandi then rest...very the penat tunggu orang bersalin tauu..hahaha..:P
Anyways, my consultant is not really a bad person. He loves his wife so much that he called his wife like every 10minutes. Haha.. He called his wife everytime he finished with a patient and sangat la sweet kan?hehe..He allowed me to do a physical examination on each patients that entered his room and he allowed me to join him doing Caesarian Section for placenta praevia patient. So he wasnt as bad as i thought he was. hehe..

Anyhow, today i think obstetrics is a fantastic field. Its really a great specialisation but i would never specialise in this field. Hehe..I saw few miracles today. I saw how miraculously a mother who screaming on the tops of her lungs because of the pain smiles and laughs in just a second after she saw her baby. She seemed to forget everything about the pain when she held the baby..Its incredible!!!

And I saw a patient who is really a strong lady. She delivered anencephaly baby who only lived for 56minutes and she didn’t even complaining. She’s really optimistic and it really amazes me when she said that those 56minutes was the best 56minutes she ever had in her life. She told me that to be able to look at her baby’s eyes and to be able to hold her for a while made her the luckiest mother in the world. She said that maybe her baby was destined to something greater than “here” and only God knw what it is. It almost made me cried and made me realise how pathetic i am. I always cried over some little things and always stressed out when things didn’t turn out to be like i want it to be. Hence, from this moment on i promise myself that i will change. I have to change for the sake of myself and be stronger and sturdy like that lady. Doakan saya ye!!