breakdown..

OMG!Im crying like a baby..=(..
I think i am having a breakdown right now. The reasons?
1. I had been a victim of discrimination today. (it really sucks. cam nak je mencarut depan diorg)
2. I have a fever+ sore throat+ tiredness+ slight diarrhoea.
3. I am left alone here in CORK. Sume orang yang saya boleh nangis n ngadu2 xde kat sini skarang..Aju xde. Milah xde. Husna xde. Nang pon xde. Saya rasa sangat depressed ok!!!!
4. I used to have a great bf who will listen to everything i said before. Unfortunately i dont have that great bf anymore.=(.
5. My mom is in Japan till 11th October and i cant speak with her, at least not until 11th oct.
6. Im feeling so lonely here and i just hate this place!!
7. Saya lapar.
8. Mungkin juge PMS. tapi macam x mungkin tapi wallahualam.
9. I miss everyone back home. ~homesick~.
10.I am worried about my lil sis in KB. I havent spoken to her yet. Tried to call her few times but cant reach her. I am worried about her food, her clothes and her studies. I knw my auntie will send her to school and will make sure that she eat regularly but im still worried.
11. I am feeling guilty of not being able to take care of my sis back home when my mother is away. I think i am a bad and selfish sister. I wish i can be with her right now. Kesian dier...This time kesian sebab Ijah takde. Usually kalau umi n abah pergi holidays, Ijah ade and ijah akan jaga die semua. Kali ni Ijah xleh skip kelas so kesian die sorang2. Xderlah dok rumah sorang2. Die stay with my auntie but still mesti die rasa bosan n sunyi juge. haih. Rasa guilty sangat2.haish.
12. Serius jiwa kacau.

Nak balik Malaysia skarang jugak boleh x?Boleh je ni nak buat kerje gile balik malaysia terus. Tapi kang x pasal2 kene extend final year sebab attendance x cukup. Duit bukan masalah sekarang ni. Dah terdesak sangat kene balik ni..arghhhhhhh!!!