shit

waaa..saye nak cakap booo kat diri sendirii...
bencikkk...
aaaaa...rase cam nak ketok2 kepala dengan hammer ke ape ke..
waaa mencik2...
saya dapat dr.cockery and die cakap die recognize saye..
ok fine la..soklan from dr cockery yg definitions sume tu saya dapat jawab..
yg die punye boleh tersenyum la waktu jwab...
yg peter lak ok 1st die tanye biopsychosocial model tu..
fine boleh jawab...pastu die tanye sal multidisiplinary team tu sume n ape keje2 org dalam team tu, ie community psychiatric nurse, social worker, pschologist sume tu..ape yg saye mention la basically except occupational therapist...yang ni cam dh kureng sket dah but try main taram jawab n die cakap ok...so takpe...yang ni pon i think i did it quite ok la..at least bleh jawab...
pastu here come the bodoh part of me...he asked me about pharmacology treatment of psychosis..
saye mmg tau..saye bace rang n dale lagi semalam ok!!!!so saye mmg tahu....buttttttttttt saye lupee...CISSS.....ok so saye jawab la..
"there r 2 types of anti--psychotic drugs -typical and atypical..
pastu examples of typical antipscyhotic drugs r...
are....
are...."
for like 60seconds..and both of them were staring at me..
ok takpe..saye pon,
"ok the examples of Atypical antipsychotics are risperidone, quetiapine and olanzapine. and the typical antipsychotics are...
are...
are..."
SHITT...rase nak makin diri sndiri je time tu...why on the earth did i forget about that??saye xpenah lupe b4 ni..saye tau side effects die cume saye lupeee...rs cam nk torture diri sendiri jeeee dengan pisau..ciskek betolll...
pastu mmg tutup muke sume try ingat mmg xingat n maybe peter nampak saya sangat stress so die cakap,
"you' re blank?"(sambil mke tersenyum..cisssss..muke dr.c tu mmg saye x berani pandang laa...waaaa)..pastu die sambung...
"nevermind..let say that it is haloperidol..so what are the side effects of haloperidol..and why its different from atypical?"
and ok now i rase sangat bodoh ok!!!its haloperidol wan nor aina..and chlorperazine... cissss..
mengapaaa..
mengapakahhh saya blank..

yg soklan side effects tu ok la..
n the rest ok la..
except yang tu je..
and yang tu je telah mrosakkan mood saye for the whole day and whole year..
can u imagine sampai die siap cakap saye blank ke?
waaaaaaaaaaaaaa...
cisss..mengapaaa...
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...
dah la keluar menyampahh betol budak2 irish ni dok sebut
"congratulations!!u r done with 4th yr."
ciss..results x keluar lagi ok!!!
mencikkk...
and the mencik part lagi adalah saye try nak g jumpe supervisor, supervisor saye on maternity leave started from last tuesday..waaaaaaa
cam hampeh gile r...
pastu saye request nak jumpe dr satu lagi..
naseb baek supervisor dh kasi name dr satu lagi elok2..
n die cakap die xnampak ape silap dalam project tu n he said that i can continue with my topics..
but die cakap make sure questionnaire tu cover sume la..so saye cakap saye nak jumpe die next week and dapatkan signature and everything..siap mintak email n phone number siap..
ok lega sket..but aaa seriusss..napekah saye blank??
xpenah pon dalam exam blank?pastu ni blank?oral exam pulak tu?????cisssssssssss
ni mesti sebab tamara lame sangat tadi so nervous dah melampau2 dah..CISSSSS!!!