hmm

hmm..i just read bitter entries from a mother who just lost her child...sangat sedih...i cried when i read them and i dont think im the only one who cries when read those entries..sangat sedih..=(...and when fikir2 balik dugaan yang saya tengah hadapi skang (problem ngan mara, financial stripe, sakit gigi, final yr project n a few mende merepek lagi) sangat la kecik kalau nak dibandingkan ngan dugaan yang 'ibu' itu tengah hadapi...first child and meninggal a fw minutes b4 keluar..sangat sedih kan?i cant imagine myself in her place skarang...sangat sedih..i dont think im able to accept it..ngan surrounding kat sini yang xde org kite kenal sangat pon, family not around, sistem yg kite xsure sangat camne...agak susah for me to accept it..tapi akak tu sangat tabah..semoga Allah swt berikan beliau ketabahan dan kesabaran dalam menghadapi dugaan ni..semoga beliau diberikan keberkatan dan rahmat yang tidak ternilai dari Allah..dan semoga beliau dapat menerima takdir Ilahi ni...and kite manusia yg hidup sekarang patut la bersyukur sebab kite masih hidup n breathing normally skang ni..(kalau ngah resp distress confirm r korang dh kat hspital skang ni)....al fatihah to arwah ahmad afnan mohd saifudin.

smoking conversation

X : U nak bwat project sal quit smoking?ha kalau camtu can i ask u a question?

Me : Sure..ape die?

X : U tau kan i smoking. So ape u bleh suggest kat i cam vitamin ke supplement ke for my health.i takut gak nanti hati i hitam

Me : Bukan hati..lung laa...ur paru2...tapi senang je..the answer is quit smoking.

X : Ala u ni.tu x membantu.i nak vitamins ke supplements ke yg bleh bwat i healthy.U tau la kan pasni i grad frm ths school i keje i kene stay healthy..if not i takleh jadi pilot.

Me : Seriously..thats the only answer..quit smoking..if u still smoking, u amik la supplement ape pon it will still kill u..gradually la..

X : Yelah..ive tried...a few times already but takleh..paling lame pon 3 days...

Me : Aha u takleh la stop smoking sudden camtu..nanti siap ade withdrawal effect sume..u kene gradually la stop..cam reduce ur cigarettes per day and jarakkan frequency die..cam if u usually amik 2 times a day, make it once per day...ok?

X : Aha..ok..but not now...now i tengah tension with my school..

Me : Up to u...but u should give it a try..slowly la and gradually la...

X : ok2..ill try..thanks.

shhh!!!!

Sometimes, kite xkan sedar ape yg jadi kat org tu until kite rase sendiri mende tu or org yg close ngan kite kene mende tu...macam mende2 yang remeh kite nampak sebenarnye teruk utk org yg menanggungnya tapi kite nampak remeh so kite xnak tolong diorg..tapi i think leader should see that...especially leader who comes from medical field..diorg patut empathy ngan patient so diorg patut empathy gak ngan masalah sosial org len...maybe nak berpolitik ngan org2 atasan n nak tunjuk diri bagus n nak bodek2 but pleaseela....tolong la fikir sal org len gak..xsalah pemimpin kene jaga kebajikan org yg dipimpinkan?kan?bak kata pepatah melayu, sape makan cili die la terasa pedasnya..dan bak kata pepatah melayu lagi berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul..ngeh2....

huhu

Ngeh2..Do I have morbid jealousy?aka pathological jealousy?nahh..i don’t think so..everyone has some jealousy…everyone must feel that little twinge creeping up on them at some point of life..am I right?yeah..everyone does…either with their siblings, family, friends or their partner we don’t know…but they do have a bit of jealousy at some point in time and im not the exception..plus I think im a bit over but it doesn’t mean I have that kind of disease..i never thought of murdering my partner or anyone who im jealous with…no way!!i don’t want to spend my time in prison or any mental hospital..no!..huhu…enuf said!!(ptg tadi terjeles kejap ngan his friend…-u know who u r) lalala..

Anyways, today I have diarrhoea and vomiting…keje masuk toilet n keluar toilet je la ari ni..i woke up at 930am today (quite early for the weekend) and I had my breakfast ready when I woke up..thanks to milah and aju..ahhaa…:p..yoyo jer…actually wawa n iza came to our apartment today and milah & aju cooked sumting for them…ngeh2..i tumpang makan je la..bangun2 terus makan..mantapness..hahaha..:P…lepas tu diorg balik n start la layan movies..adeh.im so addicted to movies skang…lagha2…

my meds

1. Rhinocort (generic name : Budenoside)


-for my allergic rhinitis
-patutnye 2 puff everyday but i usually take it when i really need it..usually once a week or twice a week depending on my health condition..kalau cam nak demam n gatal2 idung tu amik la once a day..ngeh2...


2. Betnovate ( Bethamethasone Valerate)


-for my eczema
-topically

kawen..

shahidah cakap saye kawen umo 27...dulu2 masa saye kecik2 sampaila saye besar2 kat banting dulu pon saye budget saye kawen umo 27 or 28tahun...tapi sekarang saye terasa hendak kawen..hahaha...kawen best je macam especially kalau pakai cantek2..hahaha..yg tu je kot kawen yg best..lalalala

p/s: shahidah tu lelaki sebenarnye...

i lykeee

Love...

It's a short word,

easy to spell,

difficult to define,

and impossible to live without.

today

Today was not so bad..hehe..i went to the ward round at 930am and met with my team(team la sangat kan?sorang consultant, sorang sho, 2 org social workers and 2 org nurses…)..anyways, after we met all the female patients, we had a coffee break..i thought that’s it..i thought I finished for the day but to my surprised Dr Corkery asked us to come and u know what, she even made me a coffee!!!!gile sweet kan?kalau kat Malaysia jangan mimpi la consultant bwatkan u a cup of coffee???serius jangan harap la..huhu..sorry to say but Malaysia sangat la mementingkan pangkat dan darjat…even intern pon kat msia cam dh berlagak sket2 ngan medical students..hhuhu…sometimes im wondering, did they go to medical school?yelah, they supposedly knw how medical students felt-inferior, scared, helpless etc..so they should treat medical students lots better…huhu…papepon Dr Corkery sangat baek ok..sangat motherly…eventho ngan patient she’s a bit stern but with us she’s so motherly and very nice..she reminds me of my late grandmother…=)..

Owh after the ward round, we excused ourselves saying that we wanted to go the class at 1pm..the fact was, we both didn’t go the lecture…we didn’t even have the intentions to go to the lecture…hehe..:p…we separated at wilton court as milah wanted to go to farash to buy something while I wanted to go to tesco..i went to tesco, penneys, a|wear, noname, sasha, newlook and boots..(ampir sume kedai kat dalam tu la kan)…hehe..i spent almost an hour at boots looking for something for my eczema…at first I want to buy exfoliating scrub from sanctuary but the chemist said it will just aggravate my skin more…so I didn’t buy it..it doesn’t mean that Sanctuary products aren’t good..they r excellent..it just my skin..i have some irritation going on my skin so scrub will only make it worst…my cousin used Sanctuary and she really recommends me to use it…(its an Indonesian brand made in London) …

Papepon I went back walking in the rain..i didn’t bring my umbrella so jalan dalam hujan la kan..i met this old lady..she was walking home as well..she crossed the road with me and she talked to me all the way back…she’s really nice..u wont meet that type of person in Malaysia..I mean, an elderly lady walking home and talk to strangers as if she really knws u…hehe…we talked about my studies, Malaysian and Islam..Makcik ittew siap stop kat junction nak masuk umah die sebab nak borak ngan i..hehe..sangat la semangatkan…I think makcik ittew berumur dlm 69 or 70s..(but she can still go to tesco and ran errands..mantap la kan?alone lak tu?huhu..die ckp sebab die selalu exercise waktu muda2..hehe.)anyway makcik ittew cakap pakai scarf bagus…mencerminkan yg im a muslim..=) tapi die cakap she doesn’t really like those muslim who wear a purdah…she said that she knew a muslim teacher in London…that teacher was wearing a purdah and she said that its too extreme…cuz die cakap la how could children learn if they cant see their teacher’s face?pastu die ckp lagi camne kite nak cakap without tengok muke org tu?talk to the eyes?pastu die ckp lagi cam budak2 kadang2 takut when tgk cikgu camtu sebab xnampak muke..honestly I didn’t knw what should I say on that time…so I just stay quiet and let her did all the talking..hehe..ngeh2….