scar that never heals

I had a tutorial with Mr.F today. He gave us a 2.5hrs tutorial. He was so good.
He was telling us about abdominal scars when he suddenly asked us,
"All wounds leave a scar and healed but there's one scar that never heals. Do u know where it is?"
-Silence, all 7 of us..-
"Wound in the heart. They never heal,"Mr.F.
Mesti die penah heartbroken kan?hehe..:P..
I rase die akan heal..cume ambil masa je..
It will heal quicker when ade someone else tolong sembuhkan die..=)...Betol tak?
And kalau cukup oxygen, tissues factors, proteins bla bla, die maybe akan sembuh lagi cantek sampai org tak tau pon die penah luka sampai hancur dulu kan?hahaha..:P

Hold up my heart

tanak balik

Last week, I was saying to myself that i will definitely going back for my intern...
2 days ago i was telling husna, "InsyaAllah aku balik kot"
Yesterday I was telling Elaine, "I am 95% going back to Malaysia"
But today, I woke up with a thought of staying here...
Why?
I dont know but i think i am afraid of the pressure that I will get at home..
I am afraid of the question that people will keep on asking me.
"Bile nak kawen?"
hahaha..Few of my friends are getting married this month..Carey, jitt and Farah. And of course tempias die akan kene gak la..ahaha..kan?
And I am the eldest kan and people are waiting for that..
Plus my gedik cousin has got married kan?
My grandmother already bought 2 pasang kebaya labuci from indon satu set with a sandal for my engagement/merisik or whatsoever.
My auntie already told me few times that she wants to decorate my room for my wedding....
And my mum already bought few stuff for the engagement/wedding..
But u knw what?i dont have any idea who I am going to marry.
Hahhaha..
Owh if any of my relatives read this entry, could u pls tell everyone in our family that i dont want that sort of pressure?
U guys should knw me better.

I am just a plain final med student.

I am supposedly to stay at the hospital this evening for pre-op elective admission but I am just too tired + hungry. Mr.W has specifically told us that he has nice cases in theatre tomorrow but i dont think i will go to see those operations. I hate changing my clothes to scrubs and i hate standing up too long in the theatre. I also hate the feeling that i am in everyone’s way and i just dont like it!hahaha.. I would never be a surgeon. And plus i have to attend outpatient clinics with Prof G as well tomorrow morning. Prof G is the one that will assess me for my 6 weeks rotation so i better go to him rather than Mr.W.hahaha..:P.
Hypocrite, I am.
5yrs of med school taught me that.
Hahaha.
I have a full productive day today. I have outpatients clinic this morning with Mr.W which i got a chance to present 2 cases to him. Then we went for a quick lunch and went for a tutorial with Prof H about Intensive care and blab la bla.. We finished at 2 and I attended a vascular outpatient clinic with Mr.K. I got to see 2 patients and presented the cases to Mr.K and Mr.F. Then at 4 we head off to a tutorial with Daniel and finished at 530pm or so and had another tutorials with my groupmates, C and O about Cervical Cancer and Pre-Eclampsia. Hahaha..I arrived home at 7++.

What a busy day today huh?hahaha..

lalalala

patah kaki..ahahaha..chop selipar tu bukan mine!!hahahaha..:P.

Alhamdulillah

Well-fed this week..alhamdulillah~
Thanks a million to Kak yana sebab kasi tumpang n masakkan same..
And hari ni alhamdulillah hsemate tersayang masakkan nasi beriyani.
Kenyang~
ehehe..
And we watched 2 movies back to back..
Mule2 tgk cite Fred Claus..then layan Los and Faun. Pastu nak layan Boltz actually tapi sume dh ngantok..so tdo sahaja..hehehe.
Plus esok ade study group pon and hsemates i 2 org tu x buat lagi diorg punyer presentation..hehe..:D..
Nak balik Malaysia skang boleh x?

cork

Im back in cork..ehehe..
tapi sebab limerick skang dh ade internet..
So xder perasaan sangat dah..
hahahahaha..
went to see azra and her baby tadi tapi azraa hypotensive and xlarat sume..
so xcakap banyak sangat ngan die..
tapi baby die besar gakla..4.4kg kot!!!
tapi cam x caye je kan my classmate since banting dh ade anak..eh classmateS.sebab husband die pon classmate saye juge..hahaha..
dah muda rupenye saye ni.hahahhahaha
Ye2..saye masih 18..masih muda remaja.
Farid je suke cakap saya tua..hahaa..
Die jeles dgn kemudaan saya.hahahaha..:P..
=)

Owh anyway my brother still kat dlm hospital..Takde temperature sangat dh cume die xlarat jer and xder appetite lagi..tapi dh ok sket dah..tadi aroya aloya yang jaga die..tadi spoke to aroya aloya kan die cite sal rumah kene masuk ari tu..banyak juge rupenye ilang...huhu..barang aroya la banyak ilang..kesian die..aroya and alojah punyer barang ilang...hehe..and sampai skang die cakap die trauma nak tdo sorang2..ALASAN!hahaha..:p..tapi pasni ok la kot sebab mad cuti for a month kan so ade orang lelaki kat rumah teman die study sume..hehe..tadi die dok hospital jaga and teman abang kesayangan die..ngeee..Aroya aloya betol la budak tu..hahaha...

:D

My brother is currently admitted in Perdana Specialist Hospital, KB.
Lets pray for him now so that he can get better soon..
My mum said that he is still spiking a temperature and has little appetite.
He is lucky that my parents got back to Malaysia just on time. If he got it last week i dont know who is going to take care of him.
Tapi from this event kan i knw and i realize that i definitely have to go back to malaysia for my internship. I am the eldest so i am the one that supposedly to take care of them while my parents are away. KAN? so balik malaysia pls aina jeffery..=)

Oh spoke to aroya ayoya this morning. She has lots of thing to tell me but i need to go to the class kan tadi so xsempat cakap banyak2 ngan budak kecik tu. Tapi banyaklaa die cakap from my parents yang shopping banyak kt l.a to die lari from exam kat skolah pagi tadi sebab she wasnt ready for the exam and bla bla..hehe..Comel sangat budak tu. I miss her...Cant believe that she's 15 already. A big girl already. I can still vividly remember her footsteps when she came to my dormitory back in 2000/2001. I can still remember how annoying she could be when my friends were around and i can still remember how adorable she is when she was a baby..Rindu budak kecik itu. Rindu Ijajah and Tomamad yang busuk itu juge..Usop baru pas jumpe december ari tu.hehehe..:p