.::Pretty Witty Angel::.

Breaking bad news

2012-01-28T08:33:00.002Z

One of the toughest job of being a dr is breaking bad news..
It really hard for me to do that even after 3yrs services..
I have one pt in ward at d moment..came with 5days history of bilateral leg oedema,ab distension and progressive jaundice..
Proceeded with ultrasound hepatobiliary system after found that his liver enzymes were grossly abnormal..
Turned out that he has hepatoma with multiple liver mets..
He is a very good pt with good family support..
I was looking at him and his wife for more than 15minutes thinking how should i tell them..how should i tell him that he has hepatoma with liver mets.worst,gastro team decided for palliative care..
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So i went to both of them and my first word was maaf..
:(..then i explained to him regarding d condition and d prognosis..

Im so proud of myself today

2012-01-26T14:10:00.002Z

Im so proud of myself today!!Couldnt really sleep last night...woke up at 230am and had to witness a very bad car accident exactly happened in front of my house..bunyi tu mmg kuat gile..i tot initially rumah runtuh..mmg terfikir camne la bibik bibik..kejutkan my husband yg dh bgn tp terkejut lagi and he wanted to call our bibik 1st..tah camne tergerak hati nak tgk kt luar lepas dgr pompuan menjerit so through d window i could see kete terbalik..terus turun camtu then baru teringat xpakai tudung sume so naik balik..my husband and my sis keluar dulu and ckp suruh call ambulance..d hospital is about 2mins walking distance je tp if ngan kete kene pusing2 dulu..tp b4 sempat call ambulance ade org dh bawak org tu pg hospital..tgk kete tu i rase confirm die ade head injury and barely survived...nak call my colleague kat redzone hrpz tp malas. hehe
Then lepas tu kul 4+ br boleh tdo..bgn blk 630 n pg keje..sampai quite early 745 sebab my husband drive laju gileee..the person oncall yesterday mintak tlg die buat caesar and patient dh already been pushed to operation theathre..ape lagi tekan minyak la kan.i pg blk oncall sambung tdo jap for 10mins then baru g round..sampai2 ward,ade pt gasping!!
And yes..another DIL issued...pt was electively intubated for impending collapse..then rushinh followed ward round yg mane ade sorang saje ho and mmg quite kalut lah.kul 10 camtu received a call saying that a visiting gastro consultant has arrived and it was my job to assist him today..
Letih jugak la berkejaran..intubate pt then referred then kene pergibscope room assist but ogds and guess whattttt????i had an opportunity to do my very first oesophagealgastroduodenoscopy-OGDS!!! Wow!!! And dapat sampai ke small bowel!!sampai d2!! A very good start he told me!!puas hatiiii gile raseee..
Aww aww seronok!
Die ckp bukan senang first timer nak buat sampai area d2!!hehe.
Yay!!!abis ilang penat kejap..
Then berlari2 ke klink and tgk pt gastro..then berlari2 ke ward clerk pt srbab pt tu elective admission and to be clerk by mo.huhu..pastu berlari2 solat and g cme..then berlari2 pg casualty intubate another pt...
Then berlari2 pg ward rv pt dengue..then 640 br dpt msk blk oncall smyg asar..huhu

Oncall

2012-01-23T03:11:00.002Z

Oncall today..after a long break..hehe
Baru abis round 2 wards..ade 2 ho je-one in each ward..ade sorang el.huhu
Seb baek yg senior tinggal..so basically round sendiri jugak la kan.huhu.
Last night we had a bbq at my auntie's..wanted to go initially but then rase xlarat sgt with d backache sume so cancel pg..
Pastu kene paksa ngan hubby dinner..hubby cakap dah start perangai mcm 1st trimester ie xnak makan..hehe..
Memang malas gile nak makan..xde appetite langsung..
Even maggi pon xnak so mmg selamat la..tp kalau yg betol2 suke kasi 2 bungkus nasi pon abis hehe..
Tapi skrg baru tau nape at 36wks u xleh nak oncall dh..penat weii..even nak jalan pon xlarat sgt..
High heel sume dh tolak tepi dh..surrender..skang ni pakai scholl je..biar mcm org tua pon tapi ok la sikit..
Nak tdo pon kene banyak2 bantal sebab sakit belakang..pastu budak kecik ni ngamuk2 tendang2 kalau tido mengiring tak lapik bantal..
Mmg mcm mak die je perangai ni.hehe..
Ari ni plan nak scan tapi tgk la dulu kalau sempat..
My antenatal check up done unofficially je by my husband..haha
Kalau ade problem pe2 terus consult specialist/consultant..
Padahal mende kecik je..hehe..
Owh skang ni banyak dengue n lepto cases!!so careful ek..before tdo sembur la ridsect dulu..pastu minum air yg betol2 boil dulu eh..okie?

another pic..=)

2012-01-21T16:30:00.001Z

me at 30weeks!!!

2012-01-20T15:35:00.000Z

This photo was taken few days before i was admitted..=)

yay!

2012-01-20T11:30:00.000Z

discharged home already!!given mc till sunday..actually he offered me a medical leave till monday but i told him no need..sunday is enough already..nak buat ape lame2 boring jugak..plus monday kene oncall pon..kalau x nak ganti camne..yang ari ni oncall pon i need to switch with my colleague and need to take her call next weekend!huhu..
demi sesuap nasi..hehe..but its ok cuz my specialist dh kasi green light!he told me that i dont need to ride on an ambulance anymore!yeay!!im pretty sure that rode on ambulance last monday for twice within 12hrs contributed to my sickness!hahaha..penat badan kene lempar dek ambulance tuu!!!!
anyway temperature settling..still having runny nose and cough..appetite improving..not dehydrated anymore..i had few episodes of BP 80-83/50-56!!!!

my precious

2012-01-20T09:18:00.002Z

my precious!need a bit of imagination..hehe basically tangan die tengah pegang kaki die and bawak dekat mulut die..comel x?hehe

look at this!!

2012-01-20T08:39:00.000Z

Look at my husband's oncall schedule..oncall for 6 consequtive days!!!!uhuk uhuk..=(

2012-01-18T16:24:00.002Z

My husband is oncall tonight..
It sucks..
It really sucks..
Sacrifice that has to b done as a doctor's wife..
I know he doesnt want to b there as well..
Esp when he knw that his wife's blood pressure was 80/52..
But who is going to replace his oncall?
Nobody..
Sedih la kan..kite xsehat admitted siap but husband is not around..
:(

Strong

2012-01-18T03:05:00.002Z

I tot i am strong enough to oncall after came back frm kl..apparently i am wrong..totally wrong..
My body couldnt cope with d stress so here i am-admitted in perdana specialist hospital..
Alhamdulillah luckily my baby is doing well..mommy die je ade high grade fever and dehydrated..
They have infused at least 1 pint normal saline already..i am that precious because i am pregnant..anything happened to me its going to be national audit.haha..prgnant lady kan so of course d attention is a bit more..
Sadly,my husband is oncall again today..so he wont b with me for tonight.
Sedey.:(
Hopefully he will have a calm oncall tonight..nyway hapoy birthday wan yusof!

Quality Hotel

2012-01-12T12:48:00.000Z

Yay!!im going to shah alam in about 5mins!waiting for my husband to bersiap2.he finished his last caesarian at 8am so delayed sket..patutnye kul 830 dh nk bertolak tp ni x bertolak2 lg ni kul 850.tapi no rush pon..course tu tomorrow pon cume ingat nak g tgk movie n makan auntie anne's pretzel!yay!!
Alhamdulillah smlm oncall xdela bz mane..kul 12+ dh masuk blk oncall..just terima call je lepas tu xyah kuar pon..b4 that kene intubate n antar pt jugak lah..85y.o underlying chronic illness,premorbidly xcomel tapi a&e team proceed dengan intubation sebab gcs dropped n saturation xnak picked up..and no relatives around..ni satu hal lg..dtg2 ane dumped die punye mak bapak and balik buat mende lain..seb baek casualty team jumpe address so suruh polis g cari relatives..mcm dlm pnewspaper la hospital ni tempat buangan...lepas police called baru nk dtg..pastu masa dtg explained that we have to send her to kbmcm nk ngamuk2 lak..pelik tul manusia ni..
And one more thing ade satu pt ni chronic lung disease..akan dtg casualty and request admission padahal x sob,,kalau kite xadmit die akan dtg n xnak balik so kite admit je la..family xpenah nak ziarah..tp ade sekali we called them ckp nk antar that makcik to rumah kebajikan ngamuk2 kate jgn nk malukan die seba he is somebody..pastu expect kitela jd rumah kevajikan..if u r somebody,xkan that simple thing jaga mak pon xle??betol x?

Death

2012-01-12T00:37:00.002Z

Maut ni x mengenal sesiapa..Allah dh tentukan bila ajal kita masing2. Jangan ingat kita ni muda lg lambat lagi nak mati so kite sesuka hati je nak buat jahat kan..
Yesterday pagi2 buat round i was informed that one dead body in my ward..then i asked who was it?i know each of my pts in ward without looking at their file..nama xingt sgt tp sebut katil i do remember dieorg punye problem..but that particular pt was my chronic pt..nama die of course i ingat..and xsangka die mninggal smlm..innalillah..hes not a muslim but i was quite close witg him and his wife..kesian wife die..anak die kecik2 lg..and paling xle lupe a day b4 that he was quite ok given his condition..was an elective admission pon..
Nyway 10mins after that i was called by staff nurse,"dr pt stop breathing.tp dil issued and family refused for active resus"..
So i went there just to pronounce it. What made me a bit terkilan was that his wife..i told her,
"makcik maaf deh kalau ade ape2 yg silap or salah ckp ke ape2 selama ni..and makcik waktu ni jenazah sedang bertarung..saye nasihatkan makcik pergi sebelah die baca yassin ke surah2 ke n jgn tinggal die sorang"..
Instead listening to my advice she just went to relative dpn pakcik tu and started talking about something else..im a bit furious..xkan la idup ngan org tu for more than 50yrs buat u xsayang die dh?dh fed up dj? Makcik tu mcm happy lak..perhaps diexyah jaga org sakit dh but still?husband kot?n anak2?tatau la ke mane...sedih je ngan dunia skrg...

Lupe lak hubby ii

2012-01-09T16:00:00.000Z

Lupe la pulakkk.actually cite sal oncall smlm sebab nak cite sy lancarkan mogok lapar smlm..haha
Xdinner semalam..sebabnye pissed off ngan ong team.,hehe..eventho my husband xoncall tapi nak mogok gak., kesimpulannye smlm x dinner..pagi ni he came early so we had our breakfast b4 started doing rounds..
B4 that my husband took my blood to check for my full vlood count and fasting blood glucose aka modified mogtt.. I cant tolerate 75g sugar so my mogtt is basically amik fasting blood sugar and makan breakfast.2hour after amik la post prandial..muahaha..ofcourse la kan x valid tapi xpe la.at least my fasting 3.17 jer..so confirm kot x diabetes..hahhaa..and alhamdulillah my haemoglobin pon 11..kire ok la sebab i never took haematinics/iron tablet/supplement..hahha..yes my dear reader--doctor is d worst pt..haha
Dari dulu lagi advice org suruh mkn sayur la,vitamin bla bla but i hate vegetables and i dont take any supplements for my health.,cume ari tu first trimester je i amik folic acid..tu pon on n off..hehe..
I xsuke ferrous fumarate sebab it caused me constipation which i already have since early pregnancyy..so xde kejenyee nak exacerbatekan lagi my constipation tu..haha..but reader plsss..plss makan sayur n haematinics..hehe
Saye mmg dari kecik xle makan ubat..even panadol pon..so kalau i bgn tengah2 mlm cari panadol tu maknanya mmg sakit betol2 la and usually instead of 2 tablets i usually took one sebab bajet body kecik cukupla dgn satu je..hahhah
Okie nk sambung buat sudoku!buhbyeeee

hubby

2012-01-09T10:00:00.000Z

hubby is doing a passive call today..so here i am..postcalll and still stuck in this bloody hospital.muahaha.i love u!haha
well..patutnye passive call dok rumah je kan but die kan budak baek.. mo yg buat active call kene buat 3 pending caesar so die cover labour room..
wife die?wife diee stuck kat sini lah-bilik oncall..doing what?-sudoku!!
anyway smlm for d first time i was oncall alone!!i mean without my husband oncall together..usually kalau i oncall die akan oncall jugakk.smlm die kene teman my MIL sebab my FIL antar adik die kat uia.so lepak sorang2.pastu ho ong sini punye la lembab..pt electively admitted from
clinic masuk ptg lagi tapi clerknye kul 7..pastu guess what?refer medical team for maternal pyrexia of unknown origin kul 10.selamat la kan?mlm2 nk kaco specialist..kalo yg urgent xpe la..ni nak kata urgent xmane tapi sebab obs n gynae punye case kan i takut sikit la..medicolegal banyak sikit..nanti xpasal2 msk paper mcm metro last week..chopp..xnk komen!sekian..sape2 nk surf sila la and u judge it urself la kan..huhu..

welcoming third trimester

2012-01-09T06:12:00.000Z

wollaaa!!hello third trimester!hello everyoneee!my name is raina!i have few mnths left before my mommy introduce me to d outside world!
had another detail scan done last week by ong consultant!lucky me!
alhamdulillah so far insyaAllah everything is ok except for d fact that im breech!!haha.
i love kicking my mommy's bladder so d best position for me is breech!!
my daddy told my mommy that they will proceed to caesarian section if i dont change my position before my due date!!
pap!!!
tian mummy..nnt later2 i will guling2 pusing2 and tukar position jd cephalic k??

breech by definition is d condition whereby d presenting part of d fetus in d pelvic brim is d buttock/feet..orang2 tua cakap songsang.muahaha.for d primigravida(first time pregnant) usually they will recommend for csxn.but of course it depends on d types of breech itself..still at 28wks baby have lotsa room to pusing2 and finalised his/her position.ngeee..for orang2 tua diorg akan suruh midwife "pegang2" or betolkan position tu..in current medical practice u can opt for ecv-external cephalic version..somehow my husband and i both agreed that we r not opt for both..ngeee..sebabnye masa scan tu nampak cord bnyk sgt depan muke die and of course myself takutla kan kalau pusing2 jadi cord round neck ke ape so biarla die pusing snediri..last choice caesar je la..huhu..tapi hopefully budak kecik ni pusing2 lg..
owh i have few videos and few pictured to share tp xle nk upload la pulak sebab pakai iphone..hehe..video budak comel dlm perut tengah minum.haha.pastu makan kaki diee.hahha.lapar sangat ni..tp budak kecik ni sgt tembam!!mcm daddy die!!hahah.mummy die x tembam.muahhaha

jonah

2012-01-08T22:29:00.000Z

jonah?penah dgr?jonah ni i think i had mentioned it before..jonah ni kepercayaan medical staff kalau org jonah maknanya kalau die oncall mmg bnyk la patient die akan admit atau akan ade la patient xstable or kene resuscitate..
me?ngeee..im in denial..haha.people keep on telling me that i am jonah but usually i will point it towards other people..muahha.denial kan..
but i have to actually admit la that i am pelaris jugee..bed usually penuh la kalau i oncall..and kat htm ni usually kalau i oncall and x hantar kes tak sah la..haha.paling idak pon accompanied patient pegi ct brain kat either hosp kuala krai or hosp kb..
ofcourse my parents against it la..tp nk buat camne kan?keje kan?stressnye naik ambulance ni if pt dh la x stabil then jalan jem pastu ambulance driver takut nk psg siren!
ok kat kelantan ni ade rules ambulance driver xleh pasang siren dekat traffic light.reasoning?sebab if jadi pape dlm ambulance tu doctor and paramedik ade..good job huh?mcmla sume mende ade dlm ambulance tu?
tu satu hal..satu hal lagi other drivers la yg kalau tgk ambulance bkn nk kasi laluan?boleh x fikir sikit kalau anda or relatives anda dlm ambulance ni camne?Awak ingt kami nk ke pasang siren?i am d last person yg nak pasang siren n drive laju..pening hoccay!!peningg!!dah la bau dlm ambulance tu dh satu hal..laju tergoyang2 pastu bising.mmg usually ade pening2 la and penah termuntah ok!yes termuntah!!tapi xpe utk patient kan..tahan jee.
this morning first patient i tgk gcs 12/15..breathing dh x comel dh..blood pressure dh drop..proceed with intubation..mulenye dpt maintain oxygen saturation.tp dlm ambulance tetibe saturation drop..bp dropped..ape lagi resus dlm ambulance la..brape kali jatuh terhempuk..sampai2 tercungap2 resuscitate pt and sakit perut jugak la sebab terjatuh kan.not to mention kepala trrhantuk ceiling atas ambulance n pening n nauseated..
orang xtau kan mende tu?org ingat keje doctor ni best..penat..tu x mention lg nak kene call cari ventilator..tu x mention lg all d sacrifices yg kene sacrificed kan?xleh attend family gath,kene layan komplen org yg karut, kene jaga hati patients,diorgnye relatives,our familynye hati, korbankan masa dengan family...
so adik2 yg cita2 nk j doctor fikir la dulu betol2.saye rase baek anda apply jd cikgu je,,gaji best,,keje rilek...weekend adee..duit masyuk.kerajaan sayang..ade masa boleh mengundi..ngeee..okla.sila jangan panaskan entry ni.tq.but seriously..i wish i am a teacher not a doctor..

uhuk..

2011-12-28T17:51:00.000Z

Allah Maha Besar..sesungguhnya kita hanya merancang namun Allah jua yang menentukan segala2nya.
we have planned to go to kl tomorrow for a short break since early last month..
but then banyak betol obstacles..dengan tetibe mo medical tinggal 3 org..dengan tetibenye ade exchange programme btwn medical mo hrpz n htm..dengan tetibenye ade tb audit tomorrow..banyak sekali namun kami masih put a high hope nk g kl..
tapi obstacle yg last ni mmg kami xdpt nak challenge..my lovely sister,ijah was admitted to hospital pakar pwrdana since 2 days ago due to persistent high grade fever..taktau source die dr mane..total white cell die on initial presentation was 25.1!!!!!predominantly neutrophils..
last night suddenly her blood pressure dropped down to 60/46..pulse rate 112..post 1 pint hartman was 80/52..
do u think i can leave her alone in d hospital and pergi enjoy kt kl?
definitely big NO!NO!NO!
in fact smlm i slept at d hospital..seb baek delima suite is quite big..slept with my husband at d kitchen area dlm suite tu while suraya tunggu sebelah ijah..kalau pape je suraya boleh callled us straight away..
d specialist pon xtau source fever die frm mane..chest xray clear.ufeme clear.everything was perfect except for her general condition-very weak n lethargic..plus leucocytosis n high grade fever..
started on rocephine but last night dvlp diarrhoea so d specialist added iv flagyll and proceed with ultrasound abdomen today..
im oncall today and im not able to contact them yet due to a very hectic schedule today..
im currently in d ambulance on my way back to htm after sending a very unfortunatr young lady to hrpz2..
masa on d way pegi tadi termuntah few times sampai kene mintak staff nurse ambubagged d pt..
sekian..
owh worst still,i havent eaten yet!!

uhuk..

2011-12-28T16:05:00.000Z

help me!!!

2011-12-25T23:08:00.000Z

help meee!!guess where am i at d moment???
im stuck inside d lift!!!
seb baek ade few others jugak yg stuck with me..
kalau x mau nangis..
dh about 10mins ni stuck..
aiyoyooooo..
lemas sudah raseee.

help me!!!

2011-12-25T23:06:00.000Z

help meee!!guess where am i at d moment???
im stuck inside d lift!!!
seb baek ade few others jugak yg stuck with me..
kalau x mau nangis..
dh about 10mins ni stuck..
aiyoyooooo..
lemas sudah raseee.

casualty

2011-12-25T14:00:00.001Z

I miss working at accident n emergency department..!!
I think i'd mentioned it before..
It was very exciting..
It was the best posting ever..
I was made a big mistake when i met the timbalan pengarah asked her to put my name in medical dpmt.. I should have stayed..but then medical pon xde la teruk mane..
Later in d future je..
Need to make a choice..
A career with a busy life or a career with cosy life..
I will definately choose family instead of career but how far will i go to sacrifice?
Should i just apply for family medicine and stay in klinik kesihatan?at least i will have my weekend off and i dont have to actively oncall..?
Or should i proceed with medical and expecting my phone to ring in everyday even im not oncall?
Or should i carry on with casualty?work in a shift system?
Hmm..
I really do not know..

my hubby birthday celebration

2011-12-25T02:05:00.000Z

It was about a month ago!hahaha...his birthday was on 7th november (7 eleven).haha..He had 3 separate parties and 3 different cakes!(jealous)..hehe..raya aidiladha so semua orang pun nak celebrate bday untu'2.

1st cake

A rainbow cake made by ijajah a night before that. comel x?

It was held at my auntie's hse..masa tu tengah korban kat sane..ngee..had to recruit budak2 kecik utk pegang belon and pakai topeng and paksa dorang nyanyi lagu..hehehe.:p

And yes..ijah forgot to bring d candles..and my auntie didnt have any bday candles in stock..so there u go!hahaha..besar gile candle..hehe.::p

2nd party..

The cake was bought by rahimie's siblings..his all-time fav ; chocolate indulgence by secret recipe..

Gemuks!!makan kek banyak2!!!

3rd cake...

the kitchen was a mess..hahaha..i used oreo to decorate it..santek x???

tara!!!!!the taste was quite good!

weekend - spa

2011-12-24T13:53:00.004Z

A very relaxing weekend..
we went to ayer spa, renaissance hotel today..
my hubby took full body massage + refreshing facial while myself took purifying facial + foot massage..
of course i want a full body massage but how would i ever enjoy it with my baby bump.hehe..
plus my husband would never permit me to have that during this time..hehe..
nanti tak pasal2 prem contraction..
muahahhaa..:P
anyway tomorrow im back to normal routine...ONCALL!!!
*sigh..
hopefully it will be a very calm and good oncall tomorrow..
im into my 3rd trimester and for those who has experienced it, u must know how tiring it could be...

yezza!

2011-12-23T12:40:00.003Z

bbq!anyone?

weekend

2011-12-23T12:40:00.000Z

wohooo after 3 hectic weeks finally i have my weekend off!hmm not exactlt actually..hehe..im oncall again on sunday but at least 2 days off..
have so many things to do..
rase mcm nak masak la ari ni.hehe.any idea?

eh application ape ek nak gune utk upload pictures terus to blogspot ni?have so many pictures to share but malas nak sync kt laptop.leceh.hehe.
anyone?

weekend

2011-12-23T12:35:00.000Z

unpredictable

2011-12-21T22:51:00.000Z

so many unpredictable things happened in just 2days..
speechless...

nausea n vomitting in pregnancy

2011-12-19T20:54:00.000Z

1st trimester was quite a nightmare..i had quite bad hyperemesis gravidarum aka nausea n vomitting in pregnancy..i lost ~7kg..to make it worst,i was in medical department and it was ramadhan.. imagined urself had to thrw out everytime food entered ur mouth..my husband sampai need to put me on drip..2pint normal saline and 2 dextrose were infused to my body..
penat tu toksah cakap la kan..but somehow that what makes me stronger..
my husband took all d bloods for basic ix and apparently i had subclinical hyperthyroidism..one of d obstetricians ckp thats indicate i have extra hcg and insyaAllah baby akan sihat..insyaAllah..ameen..
i d my blood taken again last 3wks and alhamdulillah it was back to normal again..and guess what?im gaining weight quickly!!tatuttt.takut nnt after bersalin dh x turun..
aiyokkk!!!

woot

2011-12-17T18:24:00.000Z

woot woott..oncall again today..woke up at 330 last night..hubby did a passive call last night and there was a pt with ruptured ectopic pregnancy came at 330am..
so ikutla hubby terus dtg hospital..alang2 oncall todaykn but then terkejut so bole tdo blk kul 6..
and now im not feeling so well..a lil unwell due to persistent eod calls and insufficient sleep..
walking like a zombie, thinking like a monkey and talking like a manic..hopefully i do no harm to my pts..sorry pakcik n makcik if i talked nonsense..
ultimately thousand apologies goes to my dear raina.,,mummy mintak maaf sebab sayang have to partly endure mende ni sume..mummy have to work sayang..many sick pts need mummy and mummy have to repay this people for their kindness of sending mummy to ireland before..sayang pls b tough for mummy and daddy k?mlm ni if daddy x bz,kite curi tgk muke raina lagi k?raina jgn malu2 k?suke sgt menyorok muke kalau daddy scan..jual mahal betol..hehe..love u sayang!!muahxxx

oncall

2011-12-15T22:52:00.000Z

my oncall schedule this month is very tight..i've eod calls since tuesday till ths saturday..so im going to be really2 exhausted and frazzled..
i will be physically,emotionally and mentally exhausted..one of my specialist once told me;
"dont worry aina..ikut experience duly kalau kite bz keje oncall sume insyaAllah anak cerdik.."
i really hope it is true..hopefully my gegirl kuat mcm daddy die and pandai mcm albert einstein..hehe
mummy n daddy love u so muchh!daddy xkasi mummy nek ambulance antar pt tapi mummy have to..sorry ek budak kecik?
my budak kecik ni xtau either she likes or dislikes d ambulance..usually if naik ambulance antar pt dengan siren n bumpy2nye kete die mesti tendang perut mummy die bnyk2.xtau la die suke atau x?maybe siren tu kaco die tido ke or mayb die suke bunyi2 tu..
love u soo muchhhh!!

Im going to be a mommy!!

2011-12-14T02:34:00.002Z

Can u believe that??
Im going to b a mommy..!!!
Time flew by so fast!!
I still remember myself as a kid throwing a tantrum and crying like a baby for a toy!!
And now its going to be a reverse role..its me who has to be patience and buy my child a toy!
Frightening right?how am i going to handle a crying child?im not good in that specialty..never been good eventho i am the eldest in my family..hehe..
But then shes beautiful..yes insyaAllah i will give a birth to a beautiful girl perhaps end of march or early april..
Cant wait!!
My husband did d scan himself..he is a medical officer in obs n gynae..he told me few times that our child is a girl but i never believe him..hehe.die pon jadi takut nak confirmkan so he aske his boss and she confirmed it last 2wks..
Tapi still sume tu di tangan Allah kan?she may still be he..maybe twrsembunyi ke testis die susah nak nampak..hehe,.but it doesnt really matters..what matters most is she is born safely and cukup segala sifat..its more than enough already..
Nyway i think this blog is going to be all about d baby after this!
Very exciting!!
The feeling is undescribable!masyaAllah its so beautiful!

dilema

2011-11-22T15:31:00.000Z

"malas saye nak jawab soalan doktor ni.buang masa saya.baik saya tido"
And he fall asleep or at least pretend to sleep after spit it out..
I was like,"erk maafla pakcik kami tanya ni bukannye sebab nak menyusahkan pakcik tapi nak bagi rawatan yang betul utk pakcik"..
Then die bole pulak bukak mata jawab dengan sinisnya,
"ala padahal nak buat kajian kat saya kan?cakap je la doktor"
I was like,ok fineeeeee.xnak sudahhh..tapi dlm hati je la.haha.xprofessional la kan kalau ckp camtu but of course my perception and impression towards him changed immediately..rase nak treat die pon dh kurang..rase malas nak buat ape2..the treatment towards him pon dah takle nak optimize because he did not want to cooperate with us..
After posted to district for almost 3mnths i found out quite a number of diffiulties in treating pt..pt and relatives x cooperate tu standard la..pakcik makcik yang dh nyawa2 ikan tp anak2 nk bawak balik jumpe bomoh pon bnyk..young patients yang ok je tp requested nk msk ward pon berlambak gak..susah nak deal..die xmcm kat kb kes yang bukan social..kes yang mmg quite straight forward even diagnosing them difficult..huhu..

adaptation

2011-08-26T10:48:00.001+01:00

Im enjoying medical!haha crazy.yes i am crazy..actually i think i have a problem with adaptation..i have difficulty in accepting new environment.after a month im beginning to love medical.of course i miss a&e.if i am given anothet chance to choose,of course i will choose a&e.i just love the adrenaline rush that will b released when attending a pt in a&e.its so exciting..
I have great colleagues in medical..i just love it..haha

adaptation

2011-08-26T10:48:00.000+01:00

hopefully

2011-08-18T10:03:00.001+01:00

Life is getting better..
asalkan x oncall ok la..
kalau oncall mmg teruk lah rase..
i do love medical..
i was purposedly requested to be posted in medical..
tapi environment kat situ kurang memberangsangkan sket..
but my colleagues told me pekakkan telinga, keraskan hati..
jadi robot..
then ull do well in medical..
haha hopefully ill do well in medical..hopefully..

stress lagi

2011-08-16T09:46:00.000+01:00

Woke up with teary eyes this morning..
Luckily i have my husband who is very supportive and lovely..
He told me not to go to hospital if i dont want to..
Of course i dont want to but i dont want to have such bad record in my personal file..
I was so demotivated at the moment..
I think its hormonal..
Ist trimester kan..
Nak cope ngan my nausea n vomitting in pregnancy lagi..
Haih..
Im so exhausted physically,emotionally n mentally..
Lame2 boleh jadi gila ni.hahhahaa
Jadi ho lagi best..

unhappy

2011-08-05T12:08:00.000+01:00

Unhappy..
Exhausted..

I had finished my internship about 2 wks ago. It was a huge relief. Initially i was retained as a medical officer in emergency department.However my husband and myself thought that shift system doesnt really works for us. If i choose to stay in a&e i have to work in shift. Thus my husband called the office and asked to put my name in medical department. I was quite happy when i received a letter saying that i am a medical officer in medical department. At least i will have my weekends off and got to celebrate this raya with my precious. However a wk passed.. I am so unhappy... I am exhausted.. I am tired with the unnecessary rules. I am fed up with everything.
Its hard to see my smiles this past few days..
Its hard for me to laugh even the joke is really funny..
Its hard for me to get up early in d morning to go to work..
Its easy for me to shed my tears..
Its easy for me to become irritable...

Perhaps its hormonal..perhaps..
I dont know..
But i am unhappy.
I am usually good with my pts. But my communication skills seem disappeared like a blink of eyes..
I m no wonder a fav dr for my pt...
i used to be good but where i am at the moment?where?
I should have stayed...
My life in emergency department way better..
I have a good relationship with d specialist in etd.
I know what i should do in etd.
I love the adrenaline rush u would feel when u r looking after a pt in red zone. The moment u heard 4 bells ringing,-aah the feeling is so undescribable..
I enjoyed working in etd with those medical assistants and nurses.
I miss emergency trauma department...
How i wish i can turn back on the time....How i wish..

Medical officer

2011-08-02T11:37:00.002+01:00

Wahhh sungguh lame x update..hehe.act8ually everyday ade tulis tapi takut nak publish.haha..takut ade org len terase.ngeee..nyways today i am officially a Medical Officer.hehe.no longer HO aka hamba orang..2 yrs of air mata, happiness, knowledge and experiences..
Actually nak masuk medical tapi boss suruh stay A&E. A&E not bad actually..it just that i dont like the shift system..mcm x best sebab cuti x sama dengan orang kan...
tapi the best thing is if i ade baby makanya everyday pon i jumpe baby i even oncall!!hehehe.:P

Kisah Hati

2011-07-11T05:33:00.002+01:00

Baru terdengar lagu "Kisah Hati" from Alyah..
Mule2 dulu rase cam x best ape tah lagu ni kan..
But now after dgr betol2 mmg nangis lah..

Hatiku hatimu
Menjadi satu cinta
Ku rasa hadirmu menyempurnakan aku
Tapi cinta bukan milik kita
Semua harus berakhir

Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini
Mungkin kita bersama
Nanti di atas sana
Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu
Selamanya

Tapi cinta bukan milik kita
Semua harus berakhir
Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini
Mungkin kita bersama
Nanti di atas sana
Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu

Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini

Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu
Selamanya.....

halo!!

2011-07-07T03:21:00.001+01:00

Halloooo!!!lame gile x update ok.went to uk n irelAnd last mnth for my brother's convocation.pastu after sampai rumah tu blk je msia terud oncall d next day and postcall tu kene cabut pg kemaman for my brother solemnization.after that bz utk majlis kat rumah so mmg x sempat nk buat pape pon.bz gile.
Skrg dh ok sket dh cume kene study utk viva!xtau bile but im finishing soon so dekat jugak a the viva patutnye...huhu

=)

2011-05-27T06:12:00.002+01:00

Dr x : hello.kat mane ni?
Waiter : Ni balai polis ni.boleh saye bantu?
Dr x Aik?saye rase saye call number hospital camne bleh kene balai polis?
Waiter : haha sori akak ni cafe ni.
Dr x : owh nak kene ni. saye nak order nasi goreng ayam and air tea beng (teh ais)
Waiter : ok nak deliver ke?
Dr x : aha nak deliver,eh xnak lah ai tea beng, xsedap. ai ape ek sedap?(ore kelate panggil air as ai @ i)
Waiter : ai hok sedak gak so jenih jah kak.
Dr x : ai gapo?
Waiter : ai love u. hahhaha

entry in entry yg sangat emo!

2011-05-27T05:57:00.002+01:00

saye sangat tak paham lah..serius x paham..
a few friends of mine kan baru je sebulan due jadi mo..from ho jadi mo tapi bapak r berlagak..
macam sial je berlagak..serius..
dulu baek gile pastu skang ni fuihh..
ade sorang mamat ni kan, ortho mo..baru je la..xsampai setengah tahun pon..
tapi mmg perangai cam setan berlagak gile...opss sorry la if it happened that u r reading this entry,..
x kesah kalau nak tanye soalan kat kiteorg like "tell me the anatomy of femur", tanye "korang dh kasi analgesic ke kat pt tu?" or bla bla or "u have done ortho right?"
BUTTTT
BUTTTTTT
kalau u asked us with bengap punye voices mmg cam sial lah..nak2 perli kitorg cam lah die tu pandai sangat,..kalau pandai xkan la korang sepsis pon xleh nak manage kan?sampai suruh refer medical..lungs ade rhonchi pon suruh refer medical..cam bodoh gak la..kate doctor tapi acute exacerbation of asthma pon xreti manage tu mmg bodoh lah...
pastu boleh je tetibe marah kiteorg sebab x amik blood..bongok tol la lelaki tu...patient dtg dengan fracture of 2nd metatarsal bone yang sitting comfortably on the bed while talking to his girlfriend kan mmg xyah la amik blood..then marah korang nape x amik FBC BUSE bla bla...
we were taught by our specialist that bukan semua pt nak amik blood tambah2 yang confirm akan discharge kan?korang nak tunggu blood results baru nak discharge pt kan?kalau abnormal nak admit ke?x kan?pastu sumbat masuk dlm observation ward?
dah la unnecessary..kesian patient je kene prick and paid for unnecessary test..

pastu kan kuar ari tu government xnak buat kos baru in 5 yrs kan for medical student kan..mmg bagus ho berlambak skang ni tapi paling xleh blah when statement tu kuar dr org yang baru je jadi mo few mnths..saying that kene stopkan sume tu bla bla...cara cakap tu mcm bagus gile..sedar x die, die dulu spm pon bukan straight a..matric pon xdapat masuk medical course pon kan..gune kabel baru dapat masuk private kan?so jangan la berlagak keluarkan statement tu..lepas jadi dr konon bagus gile?how good r u actually>
x ke kesian kat budak2 yang mmg betol2 nak jadi doctor???yang mmg eligible to be a doctor?im not saying that i am a good doctor..tapi at least i work really hard for that...mmg skang ni asal ade duit mak bapak kaya kabel besar then jadi la doctor.,.snenag gile..malaysia patut tiru cam ireland..satu country tu ade 4 je medical school..ni gvmnt bukak private banyak gile..kualiti mmg turun la kan..tapi as a doctor i dont think kite kene jadi judgemental camtu..instead, i rase kite la kene trained our juniors bukan kutuk2 diorg..huhu..

Futsal!

2011-05-25T22:47:00.000+01:00

Red velvet cake

2011-05-23T13:21:00.010+01:00

Hi!I am ur chef today!

Tepung and choc powder diayak together2

Masukkan pewarna merah+ butter cream+ eggs

Masukkan dlm bekas yg cumel!

Teng !Teng! Teng. Applying d topping!

Just for myself!!!

lock jaw

2011-05-23T10:30:00.002+01:00

Last night we had a patient who came to casualty with lockjaw (inability to open the mouth).
The symptoms appeared after she yawned.
So moral of the story?jangan menguap besar2..

=)
Uneventful night last night except for a 16y.o malay gentleman came around 5am with a part of fish stucked in his hand. He was trying to caught "ikan duri" when a part of that fish (the duri part kot) got stuck between his little and ring finger. Wanted to take a picture of the real situation together with the xray(mind u it even enter his joint!!!) but my iphone just run out of battery..=)

*Im so obsessed with emergency medicine right now!tertido pon mimpi buat cpr and manage patients kat redzone..aww!

futsal

2011-05-22T14:12:00.002+01:00

yesterday got a day off!
i was represented a&e for futsal tournament peringkat hrpz 2...
mule2 main stricker but then pancit beb!so main kat defend je..
not bad..
dapat naib juara..
then told boss that i had to leave for pm shift..pastu die kate ho ramai so awak off je la..
yezzaa!!!
so main dengan bersungguh la hehe..
so ari ni sakit gileee ok!!nak bangun n nak solat sakit gile kaki ok!!
malam ni oncall supposedly jaga redzone but i have to change it with ariff..
told ariff that sori i dont think im good for redzone..
xleh buat CPR ni if any pt came with asystole ni..
belakang, bonbon, kaki sume sakit..
and luckily he agrees.
so ari ni jaga yellow and best kot sebab mo malam ni best!yezza!!
tomorrow day off and luse morning shift sebab patutnyee bukan ari ni oncall..supposedly yesterday tapi tukar kan sebab nak men bola..
oh gambar nnti i upload..
naib juara not bad la kan?hehe.:p

we are such a busy couple

2011-05-19T17:43:00.003+01:00

mata still segar ni..
tadi pm shift balik kul 11 mlm..
was actually diagnosed by ex-psy medical officer as hypomanic today..
hahaa..
biasa lah gelak2 tak terhenti..
pastu keep on asking my colleagues
"ko rase aku nampak sweet x ari ni?sweet kan?"..
ade yang layan cakap ye je..ade yang xlayan cakap "manic la tu"..
bukan perasan but then ari ni sume patients yang saye tengok glucometer (tahap kencing manis) sumenye tinggi2..siap ade diabetic ketoacidosis lagi tadi..hehe..:p
sorang je tak tinggi GM..pakcik yang datang with paracetemol overdose..
thats y i think i am sweet today.hahaha.:p..
anyways hubby oncall today..minggu ni saye main hide and seek dengan husband saye.hahaha.:p
he was oncalled last thursday and i was oncalled on friday..
he was oncalled on tuesday and he was oncalled on monday...
and then today he is oncalled while i am scheduled for saturday night..so brape ari je ek jumpe?
sabtu, ahad and rabu..hehe..not bad..not bad..
cant wait for 30th..at least i have 5 straight days and nights to spend with my hubby..ahhaa..oh tu tak tolak i pm shift..i masuk keje kul 2-11pm..and hubby kul 8am till 5..hehehe...so actually kalau x oncall pon brape jam je ek i ade utk spend masa ngan hubby?hahaha.:P

kesian x?

doctor

2011-05-19T05:53:00.002+01:00

as a doctor, i always tried my best to be as professional as i can!
but i am a normal human being kan?so shedding tears in front of dying patients, laughing in front of patients or making a funny face with paediatric patients etcetera, is acceptable right?
it just that last night when i was treating a psy patient, for a second in my life i felt so scared and just couldnt control myself.
A patient was brought to casualty around 3am in the morning. She was caught by the police after making a fuss at her house earlier that day. She was using scissors threatening everyone to go outside her house. She was fine until suddenly she saw a patient lying in the yellow zone. She was screaming to me saying that close the door doctor!If u did not close the door ill do something. So i quickly close the door. She was saying with diff voice(macam garau macam lelaki) "orang tu bela hantu. Memuja syaitan. Lama2 jadi iblis macam syaitan".
I was like, "jangan cakap camtu.die xbuat ape2 pun kat awak kan?die pun sakit mcm awak sebab tu die datang hospital.
But she still insisted for me to close the door. So i tutup la pintu btween yellow and green. Then she calmed down and her voice changed immediately..
Masa tu meremang bulu roma. She was like a different person!!!!
Lepas tu i pergi called my colleague and attend that case with him!
xberani lah.huhu..tu tanggan was handcuffed..kalau x handcuffed i xtau die buat ape lah...

Iphone 4 Untuk Dijual!!! >>from cerahjeff.blogspot.com

2011-05-19T02:16:00.000+01:00

PERINGATAN: TAWARAN INI BERLANSUNG DARI 19MEI - 5JUN (Untuk jualan pertama,kalau sambutan menggalakkan,akan diteruskan)

Alhamdulillah,aq akan balik bulan 6 ni sebab aq nak menikah,eh silap,abang aq nak menikah. Tahniah buat dia! Eh,18hb bulan 6 ni datang la umah aq,even kenal kat alam maya(bace blog aq),meh kite bersua muka,aq peramah orangnya ~~tambah comel~~ xP.

Oh,di kesempatan tu,aq ingat nak tolong korang beli Iphone 4 16gb yang murah kat Jepun ni. Bila lagi nak pakai Iphone? Paling kurang bley la update Facebook guna iphone cam dia ni kan?

via iphone tu,kan macho?

Bila lagi nak main Angry Bird dengan pelantar perintis iaitu Iphone? Memang bley main kat Komputer, Android dan sebagainya tapi tak ori la sebab awal2 die kat Iphone xP

Ok,sebelum aq announce harga aq jual,aq nak bagi perbandingan kat korang harga iphone 4 baru kat Msia. Mula-mula kita tengok harga Iphone 4 yang dijual oleh Official dealer,Maxis n Digi.

Digi - Paling murah korang ley dapat RM2090,tak caye g tengok kat laman web dorang

Maxis - Paling murah korang ley dapat RM2090,tak caye g tengok kat laman web dorang

Ok,kita bergerak ke tak official punya,mudah.my. Tapi sebelum tu,korang kene tahu sal unlock. Unlock ni sejenis hack yang membolehkan iphone baca simcard mana-mana negara. Tapi ada juga Iphone yang free-sim macam Iphone kat Singapore dan Australia kalo xsilap. Dulu iphone boleh unlock guna Ultrasnow tapi baseband skang da xley. TAPI!!!!!

Skang ada cara lain untuk unlock iaitu dengan menggunakan GEVEY SIM! Kalo nak tahu cara GEVEY berfungsi, baca seterusnya tapi kalo xnak baca n terus guna,baca perenggan seterusnya. Ok,GEVEY sim ni ditampal pada sim,fungsinya untuk bypass emergency call,so iphone automatik baca kita punya simcard. So, simcard kita boleh dibaca ^^

Ini GEVEY - Berhati-hati ketika membeli sebab ada pirate punya!

Ok,balik pada perbandingan harga,kita tengok kat Mudah.my lak.Aq just tunjuk beberapa yang aq jumpa, 1st aq cari yang klantan coz aq dot klantan tapi aq buka je kalo orang luar klantan nak beli ^^

Kelantan - Dijual dengan harga RM2000 (+Jailbreak)

Selangor - Rm2450

Ok,kalo korang xpuas hati,pergi servey sendiri. Jangan lepas terbeli ngan aq korang nyesal lak sebab ade yang lagi murah. Memang tak dinafikan,korang akan jumpe orang yang jual lagi murah dari aq tapi tu ikut nasib la,hahaha.

Ok,skang balik pade Iphone 4 yang aq nak jual.

Aq jual Iphone 4 je,yang 3g n 3gs tu saje nak bagi gempak - gambar dr FB Taqi

Spec Iphone 4 aq nak jual:

16Gb
Of course black
Tiada warranty sebab barang Jepun,warranty dalam Jepun sahaja tapi Warranty aq sendiri bagi sehari sahaja.Kalo korang beli kat Mudah,warranty pun kemungkinan xde gak.
Barang baru,bukan 2nd hand
Tidak Unlock (Jangan kecoh,bace dulu sampai habis)

Servis Percuma:

GEVEY SIM!!!! (Jenis yang aq bagi,biasanya dijual dengan harga RM150 kat Msia)
Jailbreak (Ini Pilihan,kalau xnak Iphone diJailbreak,lomat terus ke perenggan yang ade >)
Lepas Jailbreak,akan dimasukkan basic Cydia; Installous,BossPref,WinterBoard dan ETC
Juga akan dimasukkan APPS PENUH(Yang harus dibeli tp dapat aq buat free!) berpage-page,paling kurang pun 5 pages!
Kalau ada soalan,nak tukar theme camna or apa2,aq bagi tutorial free sepanjang masa,aq online je,buzz!

>Ok,sekarang masa yang ditunggu-tunggu. Ye la,dot berletiaq panjang-panjang ni,harga taknak bagitaw. Harga yang aq nak jual ialah..jeng ...jeng ...jeng!!!!

RM1900 *!!!!!!

Itu tak termasuk dengan kos penghantaran,mungkin dalam RM20-30 sahaja,tengok tempat.Lebey dari RM30,aq belanje,servis orang kata,kiranya paling maksimun RM30 tapi klate free jah!

Camna nak beli ni?
Ada banyak cara ,samada korang bagitahu ikut FB,email aq or Tweet aq! Komen kat bawah dibuka untuk soalan sahaja,benda2 lain,aq akan delete,sorry banyak2. Apa lagi,paling kurang pun,korang beli ngan aq,then korang jual balik,kaya wooo! Untung ni cukup makan je ni utk aq,beli tiket flite xlepas ni. Win-win situation ^^

Jangan lepaskan peluang keemasan ini!!!

PHD perasaan hasad dengki

2011-05-17T13:26:00.003+01:00

Ive read the critics in Utusan today. Takde keje la orang melayu ni.sebab tu la melayu ni asik ke bawah.kritik cite ni. Ok mmg la x nampak unsur kemelayuan sangat cerita ni and the hikayat itself pon was twisted a bit by the producer..
BUT FOR GOD SAKE, cite ni among yang paling ok la dalam sejarah pembikinan cite melayu. I dont have any degree or diploma in film or anything kan but as a movie lover i just think that it is unfair for them to do such thing. Mengdownkan orang melayu je.karut betul.
mmg melayu ni penuh dengan phd-perasaan hasad dengki.. i am a malay jugak bukan nak kutuk diri sendiri tapi malaysia sesungguhnye sangat bosan.
dengki je keje. keje semua orang adalah menjatuhkan orang lain. same macam cerita politik dalam tv.BORING gile ok!
dah la birokrasi gile nak mampus. bosan gile. seb baek parents i ni mmg dok sini and my family as well..kalau x mmg dh lame dh pergi tempat len..boring..
owh the people yg kutuk cite HMM tu biasa la mesti suke cite merapu dalam tv cam khurafat gile macam senjakala, penunggu istana bla bla..of course la makhluk halus tu ade tapi jangan la sampai tahap khurafat nak mampos and pelakon perempuan melayu tu pun, agak2 la nak seksi pon..macam budak perempuan mane tah yang xtau malu dalam cite hantu amende tah berkemban bareback..islam tu..kalau x islam i dont mind. nak naked pon xkesah but u r a muslim kan, so act like a muslim!!!!

Yay

2011-05-16T06:37:00.002+01:00

Yay finally!
Ive bought iphone 4 from my lil bro who is currently studying in Japan.
He bought the phone with a cheaper price than we would ever buy it in Malaysia.
However, we were unable to use it as a phone in Malaysia as it was sim-lock.
Ive waited for quite some time and yes yesterday i am able to use my iphone 4.
Yeay!
I love my HTC HD android(actually windows but we converted it to android), but then it has less applications as compared to Iphone.
But then i think for internet surfing, android is muchhhhh faster than iphone 4.
Anyhow im using Iphone 4 and im loving it!

Oh u know what, my sisters and i went to the Tesco to buy some groceries and toileteries..
We were then followed by a psycho who keep on looking at us and even wink at me.
My sister,Ijajah, who is always my heroin, went to him and told him " Serabutnye lelaki ni ikut2 ni kang aku tampar kang".
and yes he stopped following us after that.hehehe.:p
and so tesco is ours.=)

Senjakala

2011-05-15T03:49:00.003+01:00

Semalam kiteorg tgk Senjakala.
Ya Allah khurafat gile ok cerita tu!
Sangat x best..
Jalan cerita sangat slow, hantu x keluar sngt and ending die anti-klimaks gile..
Mmg bosan..
Sangat bosan..

And sangat bosan dengan cerita melayu..semua cerita seram..kalau kat astro first tu semuanye cite seram..
cube la buat cite yg lain sket..
senjakala tu kalau budak2 tengok kan, seriously diorg akan terpengaruh la kot..
and paling best waktu perebutan saka tu.hahaha
lawak ok!

Anyhow, i paling x sabar nak tunggu cerita Lebuhraya Karak..
Yezza!

(Pm shift ari ni!yeay!i love PM Shift cuz bleh bangun lambat and round ward kejap gile.Kalau x kan, mau 2jam round ward!)

Temokk!

2011-05-14T12:26:00.003+01:00

Aaa rase gemuk!!i have less than a month now!!!
hehe..macam majlis sendiri..
instead, majlis kawen adik actually..
tapi still!mesti ramai yg datang including my friends so i mesti nampak kurus ok!!!
after kawen ni ive gained 3kg ok!
ayoyo!

baru 10 ari

2011-05-12T14:28:00.000+01:00

A 19y.o/malay/lady came to me this morning :-
Me : Salam kak. saye Dr.A.Boleh saye bantu?Sakit ape ye dik"
X : Sakit perut.
Me : Sakit camne dik?
X : Sakit semua lah.pastu kalau sakit tu naik angin jadi sesak nafas. (Then buat gaya menari2 macam zaman 60.Then tetibe bangun and pergi kat cermin betolkan tudung)
Me : Eh nak pergi mane tu. Meh duduk dulu . Cuba cerita lagi. Ade rasa loya nak muntah x?
X : Aha ade. Pastu rase macam nak mengidam semua. Oh akak, saye baru kawen.
Me : Owh awak baru kawen. Bile last awak datang kotor.
X : Baru je 9hb May ari tu.
Me : Owh baru je 3 hari lepas. Skarang tengah datang kotor lagi ke?
X : Rasenye dah takde. Tapi taktau la saye. Cube tanye ayah saye.(then she suddenly got up and called her father outside.
Me : Eh takkan period awak awak tanye ayah awak?
X : Saye ade sakit jiwa. Ayah saya yang uruskan semua. Tapi saya rasa saya mengandung
Me : Bile awak kawen actually?
X : Baru je 10 hari.

fun

2011-05-11T04:16:00.006+01:00

Hari itu punye la tak suke emergency department kan..
Tapi skarang IM FALLING IN LOVE WITH EMERGENCY DEPARTMENT!
so much funnn!
maybe because im working with fun people kan..
the ratu2 gossip, Mila, Yani, Nadia, Mokknik and few others make it so much fun!
patients ramai pon boleh gelak2 even serabut sket..
owh of course minus the "no weekend" lah..
but if ade weekend mmg menarik gile lah..
owh and of course minus the "no oncall claim" lah..
hehe..tapi best tau!
macam2 cite and ragam orang kat emergency department ni..
yang marah doktor, yang nak tipu doktor, yang betol2 ill, yang nak mc and bla bla..hehe.:P
and the doctors sendiri pon...hehe..
meh i share a pic with u all...

Ni clerking sheet one of my colleagues at 625am in the morning..macam tulisan budak darjah satu buat karangan tak?hehehe.:P..malam tu jonar aka penat gile so by 6 tu dah flat dh die ckp..hehe..tapi lawak gile la..and of course la lepas tu die g basuh muke and write another one sebab malu tulisan buruk gile and nanti boss marah..hehe.:powh and end up patient tu sebenarnye nak mc je..kiteorg diagnose pt ni as "malingering"
nak tau ape itu malingering?

Malingering : is a medical term that refers to fabricating or exaggerating the symptoms of mental or physical disorders for a variety of secondary gain, motives, which may include financial compensation; avoiding school, work or military service; obtaining drugs; getting lighter criminal sentences; or simply to attract attention or sympathy.

=)

Secret garden

2011-05-10T12:09:00.002+01:00

Lagu sedetik lebih ni best sangat lah..
tengah2 tengok patient sempat lagi nyanyi.hehehe
tgh2 examine nyanyi2 lagi.hehehe.:p
satu lagi lagu best lagu dlm secret garden tu..
suke sngt dgr bunyi piano and violin diorg..hehe.:p
smlm while waiting for respective team to come and review their patient i dok jiwang kat kaunter..nak tido tak bole kan..so dok menulis je la..
konon mcm study tapi bukan pon.hehehe
anyway ni maksud lagu yang i suke tu...

The man, Hyun Bin

One man loves you
That man loves you with all his heart
Everyday like a shadow he follows you around
When that man smiles he is crying on the inside

How much longer
Do I have to just look at you alone
This love like the wind
This worthless love
If I keep trying will it make you fall in love with me
come a little bit closer
Just a little bit
I'm the one who loves you
Right now by your side
That man is crying

That man is very shy
So he learned how to laugh
There is so much that can't be said even amongst close friends
That man's heart is full of scars

So that man
Loved you because you were the same
Just another fool
Just another fool
Is it wrong to ask you to hold me once before you leave?
I want to be loved..its true
Every day inside...Inside his heart...He shouted and
That man is by your side again today

Do you know that I'm that man?
You wouldn't act this way if you knew
You wouldn't know because you're a fool

How much longer
Do I have to look at you like this alone?
This stupid love
This worthless love
If I keep trying will it make you fall in love with me
come a little bit closer
Just a little bit
If I take one step forward you take two steps back
I'm the one who loves you
Right now by your side
That man is crying

Sedetik lebih

2011-05-09T03:57:00.002+01:00

Setiap nafas yang dihembus

Setiap degupan jantung

Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Dalam sedar dibuai angan

Dalam tidur dan khayalan

Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang

Barulah terasa ku bernyawa

Kasihku…ku amat mencintai kamu

Kerana kau beri erti hidup

Ku kan terus mencinta sedetik lebih selepas selamanya

Di kala penuh ketakutan dengan badai kehidupan

Ku bersyukur adanya kamu

Biarlah kehilangan semua yang dimiliki di dunia

Asal masih adanya kamu

lirik ini sngt best!a friend of mine cakap kalau ade sesape dedicate lagu ni kat die, die akan kawen ngan org tu,hehehe.

absurd plan

2011-05-08T17:11:00.002+01:00

Nih namenye gile blogging..hahaha...esok double shift...pagi dan malam...
malasnyeeeeee..seriusss xsukeee sangat dh keje pagi...
sebab?
sebabnyeeee kalau pagi bos ade..boring susah nak clerk patient sume..kalau round ward pon mesti lame..kalau petang xsangat.hehehe.:p
anyways saye rase saye nak tulis novel lah pasni.boleh x?
hahahaa..
padahal dulu bm x excellent pun..
novel saje2 boleh kan?
hehe.
banyak sangat mende dalam kepala-imagination and some of the memories yang boleh diterjermahkan ke dalam bentuk tulisan.hehehe.:p...
ok tengok lah kalau rajin..hahaha..
sebab skang ni tengah berusaha nak baca kimia form 4 & form 5..
ade adik yang nak spm tahun ni and rase responsibility as a sister nak ngaja die..
kalau chem and bio and math tu boleh lah..
tapi kalau fizik and others mmg out lah..
sejarah pon dh lupe..
tambah2 skang ni macam menyampah sket dengan malaysia ini sendiri..
health system out..
semua mende out..
birokrasi gile2 punye...
if u r somebody or relatives to somebody, vip ke ape kan mmg treatment len gile laaa..
mmg sangat menyampahhh...
pastu kalau ade kabel semua mende boleh..
macam a friend of mine doktor yang depressed...
kabel besar so keje dtg kul 8. org len kul 7. nak EL anytime. weekend x penah datang round. org nak extend xleh sebab makcik head of dpmnt. nak extend pon kesian..
try u, urself imagine kalau in d future u datang and jumpe that particular doctor yang keje die cam chipsmore ni, nak ke dapat treatment from die?x takut ke mismanagement?
i dont know lah..
cube la tiru negara lain yang xde bezanye pangkat n darjat?ade tapi x seperti malaysia?
and one more thing napeee laaaaa orang atas abiskan duit utk mende x berguna..
email satu malaysia tu?to be honest i think itu pembaziran..
why not die gunekan duit itu untuk subsidi ubat2 utk rakyat?rakyat bayar taxes ape? skang ni certain klinik kesihatan, paracetemol pun takde?inikan pulak antibiotic?
pastu satu lagi nak bekukan program baru utk medical students..
adoii bleh tak tutup je private college yang offer medicine tu..nape tak tiru macam ireland tu.satu ireland tu ade 4 kolej je offer medic..
bukan kuantiti yang kite nak tapi kualiti.
skang ni yang private tu ade sornag budak ni matrik pointer 3.1 je..3.1 jeee ok!tapi ayah duit banyak..mintak masuk kolej kat kl utk medic confirm dapat..duit banyak kan?
saye sokong gvmnt tapi certain projects are absurd and xde kepentingan langsung?
ke ade org bleh terangkan kat saye ape faedah projek email satu malaysia yang cost die tu berjuta2?

another one

2011-05-08T17:05:00.003+01:00

Yes. Another one.
Pakcik came with "uluran" and when we asked further history he just made a face and stopped answering our question.
Refused medications.
So, my superior asked him "So pakcik, kalau sumo dokser, bakpo pokcik mai hospital?"
terdiam pakcik.

attention seeker ke?certain patients came to clinic with few weird complaints just because he/she wants to see their children so muchh..yang si anak lak kalau mak ayah x sakit bukannye nak balik dtg tgk.tah2 telefon pon tidak..

setinggi-tinggi mane pangkat kite pon, sekaya mane pon harta kita, kite kene ingat kalau x sebab parents kite yang lahirkan kita, jaga kite, beri kite pendidikan, kite xkan sampai ke tahap tu kan?

And kite mesti tak ingat yang parents kite masa kita baby dulu bersengkang mata jaga kite siang malam. Nyamuk gigit sikit pon terus sembur ridsect. Demam sikit pun tak tido dah mak ayah jaga and risau. Tapi nape kite, when mak ayah dah tua xleh nak jaga dorang?makan minum dorang>sakit dorang?ingatlah ye..
anyways Happy Mother's Day semua!!

Palestin

2011-05-08T10:39:00.000+01:00

another scenario- doktor saye nak iv drip!

2011-05-08T03:49:00.004+01:00

"Doktor, doktor. Anak saye ni kenape doktor x masukkan air(iv drip) untuk die??"

common scenario u would find in emergency department..tak semua patient kene masuk air aka iv drip..and ade sesetengah patients iv drip will make it worst--> fluid overload patients for example..
tapi orang xfaham.orang rase kalau kat hospital, penting utk relatives diorg dapat iv drip..tu salah satu treatment untuk diorang..
same jugak dengan kasi IM injection..datang2 terus cakap, doktor saye ni demam.nak cucuk satu jarum then nak balik lah..

adeh...kenape demam nak kene cucuk?sebab GP selalu cucuk kan?
wonder x ape GP selalu kasi?demam kasi injection satu then thats it..discharge dengan paracetemol, ubat batuk, ubat selsema and sometimes antibiotic. Total RM45. Terima kasih..

Kat emergency, takyah bayar pon.eh ke bayar rm1.xpasti tapi we treat those who really need the treatment..bukan treat those who made up a story just for the sake of medical certificate..xnak pergi keje..ape susah sangat ke nak keje?kiteorg, doktor sendiri pon susah nak dapat mc?nak cuti pon susah sedangkan kiteorg keje ni non stop..kalau keje office hours tu tolonglah bersyukur..at least u have lunch break, tea break, and weekend..cube try jadi kiteorg medical staff ni, xkisah la doctors ke,nurses ke, medical assistant ke..kiteorg semua keje berhempas pulas and mc bukannye senang je utk kiteorg ok!

sedih..=(

2011-05-06T08:56:00.003+01:00

Doktor pun manusia juga..serius!
saya memang tahu kalau ade orang datang hospital maknanya dia sakit..
and last night ade sorang pakcik ni datang around 3am with abdominal pain..
i terus attend patient tu.
die masih kat atas wheelchair, tak naik atas katil pun lagi, i terus pergi sebab xde patient sangat pun masa tu and pakcik tu mcm in pain.
and then i asked lah that pakcik,
"pakcik kenapa pakcik?sakit kat mane ni pakcik"
i asked him in a very polite way..
but suddenly anak die dengan nada menjerit told me,
"ayah saya sesak nafas lah"
saya terkedu..tak nampak pon mcm sesak nafas ke, tachypneic ker ape ke...instead pakcik tu dok pegang perut die...
i terus la dengar lungs die mmg clear takde bunyi papepun yang mengatakan pakcik ni tengah asthmatic attack ke ape ke..
yang anak die and wife die and anak die sorang lagi dok picit kaki..
confusing lah sebab sakit ape actually..so i repeated the same question again which was ignored gitu je...
then dengan sabar lagi i tanye die,
"sakit perut camne pakcik?kat mane?"
then anak die kate dengan nada yang menjerit,
"cucuk la ubat kat ayah saya tu.kan saye dah kate die tengah sesak nafas"
i was started to become annoying dah then i asked in a very polite way lagi,
"akak, and sedare semua sila tunggu kat luar dulu kejap. doktor nak periksa. saya xleh main kasi ubat je tanpa periksa pakcik ni sakit ape.lgpon pakcik cakap sakit perut bukan sesak nafas"
then i tarik curtain..
asked the pakcik again when his wife suddenly masuk balik dlm curtain tu urut kaki pakcik tu and that pakcik in a very harsh way told me," sakit peruttttt".
i pun cakap la pakcik, sakit perut ni mcm2 jenis.saye kene tanye la kat mane, macam mane and bagaimana. and die x layan i.and si anak masuk balik. i pon ok before i started to behave inappropriately, i keluar and panggil member i.
member i and registrar datang still dok cakap camtu je. kiteorg nak kasi analgesic tanye ade allergic ke xlayan. tanye wife die, die cakap takde KOT. nak taknak bagi je analgesic dulu baru assess. even my friend and registrar tu pon dh start rase unease.
pastu i pergi tulis ape yg i dapat je la.pakcik tu cakap die ada "uluran" which dalam kelantanese selalunye referred to hernia. i tanye la berape lame die ade semua and bleh reduce ke x tapi die kate bukan uluran hernia. i examine hernial orifices semua intact..
pastu tanye die pakcik dah buang air besar ke sebab kadang2 constipation pon bleh datang dengan sakit perut jugak kan then die kate tak ingat. closed questions pon x ingat. i tulis je lah..
then sambil tu i asked another friend of mine pergi amik vital signs die while asking further hx. tetibe pakcik tu marah my friend,
"kenape tak faham bahasa. pakcik cakap uluran, uluran lah. kenape lah budak2 ni tak faham".my friend terkedu.
pastu kasi injection buat inevstigations semua..
and suddenly x sampai 5mins pagi injection tinggal die pergi tulis anak die menjerit dari katil ayah die, "doktor camne ayah saye ni. kenape doktor buat tak tau je?"
we were like?erk?????kiteorg tengah tulis form2 and dah kasi analgesic pon. analgesic/pain killer tak effect terus kan?pastu kiteorg jawab dengan nada baik je,
"baru je bagi pain killer.tunggu kejap ye encik"
pastu relatives patient xyah cakap la sekampung datang dok urut kaki which i didnt see any significant lah sakit perut dengan kaki. nak panggil guard suruh cakap keluar pun malas sebab nanti jadi lain cite lak. so biar je la dorang dok urut2 kaki ayah die.other examinations semua normal except tender dekat right iliac fossa and right lumbar.. no peritonism pun.
lepas tu pt pergi abdominal xray lepas balik still in pain so kiteorg kasi another meds.
pastu still x sampai 10mins dok kate ayah die sakit lagi in a rude way..
lepas tu kiteorg tunjuk xray die and explained d findings and cakap that kiteorg tengah tunggu investigation results semua. pastuuuuu 5mins after, pg jumpe pakcik tu pakcik tu kate pain dah relieved dah...
anak die exaggerate..die cakap pain x relieved tapi pakcik tu dh bleh tido dah..
pastu i refer surgical...sebab elderly takut sket kan ischaemic bowel ke ape ke kan..pastu dh pain dh relieved tu pakcik nak balik!!!xnak admission sedangkan x rule out lagi mende lain...
i then pergi counselled semua oklah agreed tapi anak die bukan ke nak cakap sori ke, thank you ke, buat tatau je..

Ok i know semua yg datang mmg in pain. But dont expect terus ilang dalam sekelip mata je. Ubat tu amik masa jugak..and janganlah rude...kiteorg cakap elok2 jawab lah elok2...kiteorg bukan sengaja tanya soalan banyak2 tapi kene tanye sebab nak kasi diagnosis ape kan...and kiteorg bersengkang mata bukan utk diri kiteorg pon, tapi utk orang lain kan..how about show us a bit of respect.Tak mintak pun cakap terima kasih ke ape..just janganlah tengking2 kiteorg...
kiteorang dah berusaha tu buat sebaik mungkin and secepat mungkin..sikit je xmintak banyak pun...

night shift

2011-05-05T12:49:00.002+01:00

Cant wait for my night shift tonight..

wanna see cases that my friends and i will always remember..

rase mcm sangat fun ok kalo keje malam kat a&e..

of course exhausted..xleh tido langsung kan even takde patient pon sebab patient bleh dtg anytime they want kan..

this morning yellow zone a& e macam labour room..

a patient gave birth at yellow zone ok!

datang2 with os fully so what to do?sambut je la..and to make it more interesting patient unsure of date and estimated to be around 32 weeks..prem!

so neonates was called..

obs was called..

turn out baby delivered normal with good afgar score.

rindu nak sambut baby actually!rindu sangat2!

tapi i dont want to stuck in labour room for the rest of my life.

so what should i really do for my future career?

:)

2011-05-04T03:51:00.002+01:00

hua hua hua

2011-05-03T02:56:00.002+01:00

Ari tu wahidah ade cakap kat hospital die ade baby datang tengah2 malam and die kene accept case..
same je kat sini wahidah...in fact last night when i was on night shift ade baby datang with inconsolable crying..pt dtg around 1230 rasenye..xsempat tgk jam sangat but for sure tengah2 malam..dah la suke hati je masuk bilik dr xikut turn pastu terus cakap name die and the prob is baby tu dah stop crying pon..in fact masa baby tu i examine ok jeeeeeee...
pastu cover kate anak die nak buang air besar and nak g basuh..lepas tu x datang2 dah..cam hello??naseb baek i x buat police report.i should have done that actually tapi sebab mak die nurse kan dah malu dah kot.hahaha.and anak die baru je start nangis masa die bawak tuu..about half an hour.i dont have child on my own but i do know some babies sometimes bleh nangis berjam2 kalau xkene gaya..so xleh ke tunggu dulu?kasi susu ke?adoi..
pastu ade sorang lagi datang kul 4pagi sebab bangun malam2 tgk cermin nampak muke die ade jerawat..
for god sake?datang casualty sebab muke ade pimple sebijik?

teenage pregnancy

2011-05-02T01:29:00.000+01:00

Sebagai seorang hamba Allah, saudara seislam dan wanitakan, saya sangat sedih sekali melihat bayi2 yang dilahirkan oleh remaja2 yang tidak berkahwin ini aka anak luar nikah...
Bayi itu tidak bersalah tetapi ibu bapanya yang bersalah tapi bayi itulah yang menanggung bebannya..
a story to sharekan..
ade sorang baby ni masuk ward kan..
without pampers, susu sumelah sorang makcik ni bawak masuk die..
then die cakap kat nurses,
amik lah baby ni makcik xnak jaga..mak die masih sekolah lagi..,
then "ayah" baby tu datang n cakap actually saye nak jaga tapi mak gf saye x kasi..
and then i was like,
"hello if mak die xnak jaga then u jjaga la"
end up baby tu xde org nak jaga pon refer social worker...
pampers pon xde..
nurses pakaikan lampin je utk die..
seb baek ade sorang HO ni baek hati belikan pampers utk die while waiting for social worker semua kan..
tapi tula..semua pon lepaskan je responsibilities die kat org len?
and budak tu sendiri pon xfikir ke sebelum buat mende ni semua..
xmalu ke kat diri sendiri, Allah, family and society...
*sigh

unpaid oncall tonight

2011-04-28T09:27:00.005+01:00

Super duper busy ok ari nie!
makin ari makin jonah ok!
masa awal2 ari ni xde patient siap ade purposeless movement with restless legs lagi..
lepas tu bos siap cakap lagi "ari ni x ramai lah.sunyi je"
lepas tuuuu haaa muleee lahhh
2-3 org datang serentak!
xmenang tangan..
and in the end rase nak demam sebab patients ramai sangat.
hahaha.
tapi mmg x berape sihat sangat pon lately..
asik on and off fever je..
huhu....

berjalan2 di pantai

2011-04-27T04:46:00.006+01:00

course

2011-04-26T01:32:00.001+01:00

Boring.waiting for all d participants to come.should have started about 10mins ago.bnyk nk story mory ni.
Nnti ade made ill try to blog about it

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sob sob sob

2011-04-24T02:02:00.000+01:00

aww

2011-04-23T02:43:00.003+01:00

Pm shift today after 2 days off..
Maximised my precious time with the love ones.
keje kat emergency department keje shift
everyday keje..
NO WEEKEND at all..
every 4th day then kiteorg kene double shift-morning and night shift..
after night shift tu then day off..
tapi balik pon after pass over which is around 9am..and if u r unlucky petang tu ade CME or teaching session which u have to attend it..
therefore basically u xde cuti langsung la kan other than 8days cuti rehat in 4 months that u r eligible to)
then as another human being u fikir la best ke x best jadi doctor ni..
ur right as human is kind of denied kan?hahahhaa
hahaha..sebab banyak articles recently keluar sal how teruk doctor keje kan..
yes we worked 36hrs non stop if we r oncall..(kat posting lain lah sebab a&e keje shift)
and utk orang2 jonar mcm i yang kalau oncall cases non stop datang thus 36hrs without sleep would be so terribly exhausting and tiring..
oncall bukan setakat attend new cases tapi ward cases and bukan satu ward je...
setakat
"doctor, doctor tak tido ke doctor?xpenat ke?semalam sy tengok doctor dok tgk pt tu ni pagi ni pon doctor ade lagi.doctor balik kul brape doctor"
ayat tu mmg common lah..
for those yang prihatin je lah..
sebab tu sometimes kalau orang request pelik2 malam2 buta rase macam nak meletup je...
yang baru masuk ptg tu then malam kul 2pagi nak keluar ward mmg mengundang kemarahan yang teramat lah..
mcm ari tu ade my friend mcm nak gaduh je ngan relative sorang pt ni..dtg sebab accident then kiteorg fight for urgent ulrasound malam2(mind u that susah nak mintak urgent ultrasound malam2 ni.radiologist bukan oncall stay hospital mcm org len),lepas kene sebakul bla bla bla penting ke, urgent ke bla bla dapat la ultrasound tu.yes we'll do anything for each pt yg dtg kan...kene marah dengan others tu biase lah...tapi yg ni lepas kene marah semua, lepas dpt ultrasound pt ni sesuke hati je nak mintak keluar.mmg stress gile ah member i tu..dah la relative tu mengarah die.and mind u that it was 4am in the morning ok.
alamak tetibe jadi cerita lain lak.actually nak cerita sal activities that ive done for the past 2 days.

Emergency Department

2011-04-19T05:24:00.002+01:00

Malas nak sambung cerita semalam..just wanna talk more about emergency medicine..
My dear fellow bloggers, pls pls pls understand the most important point; Emergency Department is for Emergency cases!!!
Pleaseeeee..x ke kesian kat people who actually is very sick who has to wait longer for doctor to see them just becase the doctors have to entertain the non emergency cases?
Pls ok!
And i just cant understand people who came to a&e at 2-3am in the morning telling us that "doctor, saye batuk seminggu dah cume malam ni rase nak dtg hospital.mcm makin ok dah actually"
and snap!!she just want the medical certificate!
macam hello???
2nd example macam datang sebab ade mouth ulcer dlm mulut?erk??????
mmg la masuk green zone tapi xke better u pergi GP or klinik kesihatan je?

and the other important point is that sometimes casualty doctors dah tgk patients dah cume patients have to wait for the blood results or tunggu doctor yang casualty doctors referred datang tgk so masa diorang kat emergency department tu lame sket lah..tu yg waiting time lame tu...huhu..its not that doctors kat casualty not doing their job ok..
we r so enthusiastic to see the patient yang kalau nampak pt akan bangun terus pergi entertain pt tu...

my journey

2011-04-18T05:39:00.003+01:00

Keje pm shift lagi..
and as usual kalau pm shift i have loadsss of time to open the net and do anything i want..hehe..:p
actually ingat nak shopping-online shopping but unfortunately i xde duit skarang ni..
im going to london this may so kene jimat2 sikit..
lagipon my mom tengah rennovate rumah so kene tolong sikit2...
anyways, tengah2 surf internet tgk facebook my brothers and cousins..
how time flies.

ingat lagi dulu waktu spm..i pergi interview for British Top Universities (BTU) gune my trial spm results..mase tu trial i dapat 9a 1b and teka la ape b tu..hahaha.of course la pendidikan islam..hahaha..masa i pergi tu i xbitau my parents but after tu i bitau die and my mom was so pissed off sebab die xnak i pergi overseas.. i pon actually xde la pasang niat tinggi pon nak g overseas..masa tu i mmg nak buat business dalam country jer..

i got the offer but xnak pergi, instead i masuk matriculation programme..i dapat kolej matrikulasi perak with tanti and mc mar my 2 bestie from xpecx..mmg enjoy sangat2 dok situ..masa tu mulalah my relatives called me and advised me suruh keluar matric and masuk banting to further my studies overseas.they told me kalau i masuk banting i confirm dah dapat medic while kalau stay matric xconfirm lagi..the problem on that time was that i dont want to be a doctor pon so i xkesah la kan..hahaa..i just want to be a businesswoman..

however, masa tengah syok kat matric tu my bestie tanti dapoat offer from uniten and die nak pergi uniten..sadiss..pastu i pon dh tergoda dengan my uncle punye godaan suruh accept the offer...die kate takkan la nanti best student mrsm ytb nak jadi businesswoman je.i pon aiyok camne ni.businesswoman lagi best dr kuli kat hospital...last2 tergoda maka jadilah mmasuk banting...

kat banting semuanye best students kan..semua pon yang dapat excellent results kan..and semua mmg kaki study..nak taknak akan jadi kaki study..kat banting la saye belaja makan sambil study, tido sambil study and bla bla.hehe..study hard jugak la kot sebab banting mmg xde pape pon untuk dienjoy kat situ..so nak tak nak buku jugak la mende paling best.hhahaha..

then got the offers to ireland..actually dapat royal college surgeons ireland and iumc but of course i xnak pergi rcsi sebab a senior told me so..die cakap rcsi xbest and yes i just love ucc...seronok belaja kat ucc..best peeps , best teachers and best environment...

-to be contd

enjoy

2011-04-17T14:16:00.002+01:00

started to enjoy my emergency posting..
quite interesting actually..
saw many patients with different complaints and different thoughts..
ade yang mmg saje request nak admission masuk ward
but ade yang gile2 punye xnak masuk ward..
ade yang sesuke hati die je nak absconded...
ade few psychiatric patient datang utk tido je.
non specific complaints..
ade yang mmg menakutkan datang screaming mende ngarut2 sebab hallucinations and nak baling2 barang..
ade yang datang sebab nak commit suicide
and last ade yang body brought by police after found dead..
yang last tu scary...that guy jumped from the 3rd floor of his apartment..
scary ok!
muke mayat tu memang terbayang2 n teerbawak2 dalam mimpi..
b4 ni mase anatomy class perfect punye mayat kan..
yang i saw tu memang hancur sketlah..huhu...
owh but one thing for sure...
facemask kene pakai 24/7 if u xnak infected..
yelah casualty kan frontliners..semua jenis penyakit pon dtg casualty so kite la yg kene dulu mcm skarang i dah ade runny nose, fever, cough and headache...
urti from i dont know who..

premium beautiful

2011-04-14T05:20:00.001+01:00

have been gaining weight recently..
hehe..
bukan recently lah...after kawen dh naik sket dh...
dlm 5kg..hahahaha.
so usha2 internet kan..ade satu product corset ni mahal sket tapi mcm nampak menarik je..
sape pernah gune?
bleh share ke?

ed

2011-04-14T04:57:00.002+01:00

Ari ni keje petang..
malas tol...
hopefully pts x ramai la..
pls.pls.pls.
jangan datang ke hospital ye.hehe
anyways keje in Emergency Department ni bleh tengok mcm2 ragam manusia..
somehow certain pt bleh predicted..
kiteorg suke buat spot diagnosis..
mcm best gak la bile diagnosis tu betol kan..
and sometimes pt psychiatric datang kan..
nk abis clerk tu gelak2 dulu..
sebab layan je diorang kan..
;P..
ade sorang tu psy patient dtg cakap2 sambil tertidur ngan i...
i takut jugak la nampak cam aggressive kan..
tp best je layan die borak.hahaha.

boring

2011-04-12T08:50:00.001+01:00

Boring possible.cepatlah abis cme ni.haish

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stress

2011-04-10T03:25:00.002+01:00

My current posting is so demotivating that it made me soo stresful to even wake up knowing that ive to go to work today..
I think the fact that i dont have weekend make it worst..
the peeps that im working with are excellent..
nampak pt terus bangun la tapi mmg stresful..
taktau ape yg buat die stressful..
=(
mmmg la bnyk ragam bleh jumpe tapi i just dont like it..

politik

2011-04-06T02:51:00.003+01:00

Tertengok front page satu newspaper yesterday..im not a fan of the opposition but looking at that page make me realize that wth?
newspaper tu kan was read by everybody...semua umur kan?children, teenagers pun kan and what do u think when they saw those?
tak ke rase memalukan?
i nak baca pon geli..
mmg x bace lah..
memalukann je kan?rase malu sangat2. if betol pon die buat mende tu xyah lah sampai nak published gambar macam tu as the front page pon..
sangat absurd ok!
and somehow i rase mende tu akan favour the opposition je instead of menjatuhkan diorang..

A & E

2011-04-06T02:34:00.002+01:00

tak suke sangat A&E sebab xde weekend..
everyday kene keje...
pastu kalau oncall aka double shift (morning and night shift) esoknye dapat day off..
tapi day off pon xdapat day off sangat la sebabnye kalau ade CME or teaching kene attend..
dah la x dapat duit oncall...
xsukee!miskin rase..
pastu rase hak sebagai seorang manusia dinafikan sebab xdapat masa utk rehat sepenuhnye pon...haishh..
pastu dah la xsuke kalau nak refer diorg x marah kat kite tapi marah kat patient tapi berleter kat kite...
mcm ade kes, demam 2bln tapi patient dtg kul 2-3 pagi, mulelah orang yang kite refer medical ke paeds mo ke yang akan membebel2 as if kite lak yang salah.hahaha.
layan je dengar..
kesimpulannye saye xsuke a&e..
die mmg simple n straightforward tapi i just dont like it.
same macam anaes x rase attached sangat dgn pt...
lambatnye 4 bulan!!!

kisah seribu satu malam

2011-04-02T13:58:00.003+01:00

Percaya tak kat mende2 yang "pelik?"
tried not to believe kan tapi when terjadi kat diri sendiri and takde scientific explaination mesti terpercaye jugak kan?
Cth 1:
Kat my hse at the moment ade some sort of nocturnal chicken..haha..acceptable x name die?
dulu used to be 2 ekor but skarang tinggal seekor..tapi ayam ni peliknye die akan muncul right after azan maghrib and will be there till subuh,.azan subuh je die terus xde..dari mane die muncul susah nak cakap kan tapi yang pastinye kiteorg mmg xternak ayam lah...and mule2 dulu die kat luar pagar je..then skang ni dah masuk pagar and makin dekat la pulak dengan pintu rumah..weird kan?

Cth 2 :
Rumah kiteorg ni tengah tgk tv rilek2 kan tetibe dengar org turun tangga walhal semua orang pon dok kat bawah je...and kalau sorang dengar maybe sebab terkhayal ke or whatsoever tapi kalau ramai dgr tu mcm pelik kan?and kadang2 kipas terbukak sendiri and tertutup sendiri..kalau lampu tu saye bleh terima la kononnye pecah ke terbakar ke but kipas?

Cth 3 :
Penah x korang tengah nak tidur kat tingkat 1 rumah korang then nak tutup tv kan then tetibe nampak bayangan budak lari kat luar tingkap yang mustahil la kan sebab tengah malam and the other thing is that mane ade ground utk budak berlari pon.xkan berlari atas angin kot?

Cth 4 :
Bilik anda berbau pandan?yes daun pandan yang mmg semua orang kenal bau die tu kan?bibik saye cakap pandan ni gune die kalau kat indon nak mandikan mayat sebab xnak bau mayat tu busuk..bilik saye penah bau pandan and penah bau bunga2-an utk satu masa yang agak lame yang xilang walaupon bukak tingkap..

Cth 5 :
I was downstairs kan..nobody upstairs except my hubby..my hset was charged beside his iphone kan..pastu my husband tetibe dengar my phone ringing..masa tu tepat2 jam 12am..ingatkan sape terus la nak angkat..sekali tengok number phone die yang call my phone without anyone touch his handphone..basically iphone die call my hphone automatically at 12am..pelik x?

Cth 6 :
Malam2 tetibe kan kadang2 dgr bunyi kuat atas bumbung macam something berlari2 atas bumbung and landing dengan hebatnye..thought it was musang but never till today i jumpe musang tu tapi sebab nak berfikiran positif i akan fikir musang je forever...

Ade sorang ustaz ni kate ade mende kat rumah i tapi wallahualam la kan..

LMP

2011-04-02T13:14:00.002+01:00

Day 1 A&E:
not that bad at all..
pagi2 sampai round observation ward and bukak kedai kopi with Mila, Nadia n Yani..
among d best peeps i have since i started my housemanship..
kedai kopi was interuppted when another HO stopped us and cakap "korang, CCTV kat atas tu je and bilik bos kat depan tu"
and all of us were like, "shit, tatau pon"..
hahha..a&e takde bilik oncall, xde lunch hr, xde tempat ngumpat so terpaksa ngumpat kat mane2 pon...
and tengah round dengan mo, instead of focusing more on patients compaint she started to complaint about our handwritting...
yes, my handwritting is not that neat. lalalala..but yang tadi tu okay la jugak supposedly..die blum tgk kot my handwritting yang kul 2-3pagi..buruk abis ah,..hahaha..
anyways a&e best jugak apart from takde lunch time and weekend..or and oncall claim..at least ade shift ptg yang bleh bangun lambat yeehaa!!!
anywayskan, lately asked me;
"Aina bile ko nyer EDD/LMP?"
"Aina brape minggu dah"
hahahaha..bosan!mungkinkah sebab ive been gaining weight?
atau mungkinkah sebab ive been married for 1yr?
hahaha...
usually my answer would be;
"semalam"
=)

Back to december - taylor swift

2011-03-31T12:40:00.002+01:00

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time

H.O

2011-03-31T06:45:00.003+01:00

Sedar tak sedar dah almost 2 yrs dah keje!
In 2 days time im going to enter my last posting as hamba orang(housemanship)
I will join A&E and with my best peeps over there hopefully ill enjoy my final posting..
Next?
i dont know where im heading to..
i love each posting that ive joined so far..
O&G - my first posting.posting yg sangat bz.u barely have a time to close ur eyes during this posting but then its so enjoyable.i love the fact that ive got a chance to improve my skills everyday...delivery a baby, doing episiotomy, repairing any tear, assisting in caesarian section-tiring but interesting...tot i would come back as specialist one day but i just let my beloved husband do that..hehehe..he has more skill in that specialty as compared to me...

Ortho : My second posting..who said ortho paling relaks?depends on hospital u r in kot..in my hospital rekod paling lambat i balik keje, ortho lah..kul 730pm while i was in charged of cempaka(male ward)..extension katil penuh gile.,katil patients was 40+ but on that time extension sampai ke pintu and total 50+!sampai kene mintak katil from other ward!ortho pon interesting jugak..i love doing procedure..paling best buat Ray's Amputation..kiteorg buat kat ward je kat kb ni sebab kalau nak g OT?mmg xsempat r..banyak cases n ot x cukup kan..so kiteorg bagi ankle block je..sometime i wasnt sure whether my ankle block was really effective or whether the patient had diabetic neuropathy doesnt feel anything at all..hehehe..n had a chance doing the plating of tibia on my own, k-wire on my own and few others made the posting so memorable..tapi when terfikir femur org i terus xnak lah amik ortho.berat woo..even tibia pon i susah gile nak reduce sebab berat!hahaha

Medical : Im so love this posting..even my boss pon cakap u should have come back to medical..u r so good and have a bright future in medical. head of department tu cakap camtu..rase bangga jap and mmg since i was at medschool lagi rase mcm nak amik medical but then when fikir ade ke masa utk myself nanti?i pon terfikir la nak ke xnak skarang ni.ari tu mmg fikir nak amik mrcp siap lagi.hahaha.cuz im pretty sure i dont want a lonely life-idup utk myself n career je..i want a life that is colourful and wonderful with all my family members...so will see..(i think my name is already up in medical actually because i was accidently told yes to one of the specialist)

Surgical : i hate surgery when i was a medical student but guess what?i LOVE surgery at the moment. i think appendicectomy, herniotomy and laparatomy is fun. u dont know what r u going to find when u open someone's abdomen and seriously its adventerous! i love surgical!having a chance to do appendicectomy as a surgeon myself made it more interesting and memorable.hehe..=)but when it came to think that ive to stand up for quite some time during operation which may lead to formation of varicose vein in the future made me think it again.hehe

Paeds: The most boring posting ever!tau tak even ABG pon HAMBA ORANG (H.O) ni kene amik..nurses rilek je goyang kaki makan colek sambil tgk buku avon..peewittt..hahaha..xsuke la..tambah tak suke when baby2 prem ni sometimes kene cucuk 2-3 kali or more utk amik blood..kesian kat dorang tapi xde blood result kan lagi teruk..tapi rase x best!yang best about this posting was i have best peeps around me and lunch break was so much fun!hehe..owh lagi xbest sebab ade minah indon keje kontrak yang menyuruh orang kerjenye yang die sendiri pon management tah pape..inform baby desat pon buat tatau..bodoh betol..tau x nanti bnyk complications!haish.

LAst posting a&e.mule2 ingat nak masuk anaes but thinking that anaes xkan tolong kalau g district nanti cuz ventilator machine takde pon kat district so masuk a&e lah..plus i bleh refresh everything balik preparing myself for my next responsibilities as MO..=)

finally..

2011-03-29T16:06:00.007+01:00

After a yr...

Engagement Day

Solemnization 1st january 2010

Wedding Reception 2nd January 2011

*majlis menyambut menantu gambar takderlah!

benci

2011-03-29T15:56:00.002+01:00

Hello peeps!!
Dah lame x update blog okeh!
rindu nak blogging tapi apekan daya hset x best nak tulis blog.
lagipon time oncall jonar sangat so xleh nak update blog.
anyone pernah dgr the word "jonar? or jonah?"
Most of the malaysian doctors tahu kot that word.
it means that doctor yang oncall tu "panas"
kalau die oncall maknenye patient ramai berderu datang, katil jadi penuh or the whole day mmg busy dengan resuscitating patients..
I am jonar while my hubby tak...
record admission 24 masa kat ortho..
bukan waktu cuti sekolah/raya ok!
hubby selalu pesan suruh solat hajat the night before oncall tapi solat pon mmg akan jonar..
usually org xnak oncall dgn org2 jonar ni..
tapi on the bright side kan i will learn more than others kan?
cuz i ive seen many different cases and attended more cases kan?
kan?
hehe
cume kene sacrifice sket la kul 2pagi dgn baju dari pagi lagi n perut kosong semua...
owh tapi there was one day when i was really tired of attended all cases-baby born flat, caesarian for acute fetal distress bla bla n tetibe ade sorang nurse ni perli i:-

"wah ade lagi dr lagi jonar dari Dr H"
then i replied;
"xpelah kak nak suruh belajar banyak lagi la tuh"
then die kate lagi,
"xbalik dah kite ari ni.keje tak settle2 lagi.balik ni mesti kene mandi bunga solat hajat semua"
and then i was like, thats it-minah nurse tu dok dalam ward jeeee i ni berlari dari ward, pergi labour room tukar baju pergi operation theathre non stop!!!n die selambe je perli i..then i told her;
"owh elok la kak.solat taubat sekali la mintak Allah ampunkan dosaa2 yang bertimbun tu"
and die of course la senyap tak terkata lah.hahaha
padan muke.

:)

2010-11-26T04:22:00.002Z

last oncall in surgical department today..im going to miss surgery so muchhh.i like
the people im working with..they re really nice..i dont know how to thank them for all d memorable memories..the unforgettable one of course my first skin to skin open appendicectomy..done within 50mins..notbadford first time surgeonkn?Hehe..thanks to my registrar for letting me and assisted me throughout d procedure...:)

2010-11-03T12:58:00.002Z

i love my job..get to know many people and learnt lots of new things.i just assisted one interesting paeds operation..sukeeee.
nyway my hubby was admitted for 3days ari tu..balik yesterday..skrg still mc nak kene recovery..i pulak asek oncall n oncall.penattt tp seronok..i really love my job..Hehe. owh ade 3 of my fellow colleagues r resigning..sume pon kt surgical n i told them plsss donttt.sayangkan.i tau pon cuz ofis called me tny diorg dtg keje ke x..huhj...
mmgla stressful keje but then kene pandai cari happiness utk de-stress..kene marah tu biasa la.keje mane mane pon kn.my daddynye company pon ramai je kene marah.kene pekakkkn telinga n assuming that they actually care about us mcm mother who scolded her children..diorg syg tu.hehe.
nyway my registrar ckp i am a bully.hehe.lepas fikir balik yes i am a bully.haha.lalala.
oklah i m going to sleep first.i oncall ot ni.ade few appendicectomy beratur n laparotmy for intestinal obstruction..owh ade kes fournier gangreneeee uuuu.xtdola jwbnye.haba.
owh td ade kes penectomy.ouch...

syukur

2010-11-01T11:02:00.000Z

keje kat general hospital kat kb ni bole dapoat banyak experiences..mixed experiences..
i have a patient currently admitted in d hospital..
he has scrotun swelling for quite some time already...
it was painful..
i asked him why he did not come to hospital earlier..
he told me " pakcik takut nak dtg hospital.pakcik xder duit. nnanti takleh bayar"
i was clueless...
unable to talk further..
then on further history, i asked him whether he has any allergies to seafood or not..
then he told me "pakcik x pernah makan udang ketam sotong semua tu. mahal nak. nak makan nasi pun susah"..
once again clueless...
then i just told him i need to find something...
=(
it made me realize how lucky i am...
boleh makan nasi...
seafood...
shopping..
ramai je org lain x bernasib baek..=(
kene bersyukur...

2010-10-09T07:47:00.002+01:00

I I have a pt.23 y.o diagnosed with advanced colon carcinoma.I want to upload few pictures onto my blog but I just don't have d time to do so. I am in surgical posting at d moment. I've been d chief h.o since last month.thus, ivebeen occupied with oncall schedule, teaching schedule and all d small thingy. I am going to take 2 days off next week. I am tired of eod call, doing rounds, operations and everything. Plus I still having body ache post fall last week. It still sore. I went for a massage yesterday due to unbearable pain. Huhu.

Anyway 2 of my uncles are admitted in s hospital due to dengue fever..hope they r getting better soon...

huhu

2010-10-01T13:55:00.002+01:00

i have so many things to writeee!!!
i just came back from lata tembakah today with my ex classmate Catherine.
She is an irish so everyone was staring at her when we walked along with her.
Anyways, i had a very thrilling experience today.
i almost drowned!
i terjun tu kuat sangat!!hanyutkan i!initially it was fun until ther 3rd layer when i fall on my bottom onto a rock, my scarf caming out and i couldnt feel the ground.
i tried to scream for help but nobody wanted to help me.
they just stared at mee!!
i wish my husband was there at that time.
he was oncalled today thus in d hospital instead of at the scene...
lepas tu mmg dh x masuk air dh..
and my hips and my pelvic bone still aching u know..
i cant get up from chair without having a pain score of 2-3/10.
i think i might need to go to the hospital and do a pelvic xray on myself..
need to rule out any fracture or so..
huhu

2010-09-19T09:51:00.002+01:00

i miss blogging soooo muchhh.i have soo many things to write..unfortunaqtely my internet buat hal.nyways xterlambat lg for me to wish everyone selamat hari raya!maaf zahir batin..sorry for everything..if i ever hurt ya, if i ever broke ur heart etcetera...
first of all i wanna thanks my hubby for a new lappie and new bracelet..also thanks to my parents for new jewelleries for my bday..thanks to my lil sis ijajah for the sauna set..and thanks to everyone for d warm wishes and special gifts during my bday..loveya..
2nd is that i met dr zek!in real life.he works as anaesthetist in hrpz2. xsangka jumpe blogger juge kat hospital ni.dr zek sangat baek..dh oncall dgn die twice..setiap kali oncall ngan die mesti kene call die carik ventilator..mesti ade pt yg nak kene intubated.hehe.
nyway gtg

2010-08-31T01:42:00.007+01:00

i was so pissed off with d system yesterday.felt like quitting my job and become a doctor at d other places.or perhaps not a doctor.. at all...i think its only in d hrpz2 where h.o doesnt eligible for a long holiday..we cannot take more than 4days..and of course weekend is counted in.mcm xde hak je kan kite ni as human kan?no wonder many of my friends here are under psy follow up for depression...benci kan?
anyway citenye started with d district posting..my name was up again to go to district.macam siot je.mls nkckp dah

2010-08-26T09:57:00.002+01:00

i have a very bad gastritis since yesterday... a bad one that made me went to d clinic and had one injection for d pain.then today it worsen. i cant do anything because of d pain. i called my husband and he came to my ward.he insewrted a branula and give me iv ranitidine stat and iv maxolon. should have ommeperazole or panto p lambat nak amik.then i went to oncall room tdo kejap. i oncall today so xle akik mc.kalau x confirm dh amik mc.then i went for pm round..my specialistsangatlah baek die suruh saye head off home.saye ckp saye oncall.then die suruh sy rehat.saye sangat suke dieee...:)
anyway sile doakan oncall sy sejuk ari ni.doakan xramai pt yg masuk...amin..
owh n u know what..pagi td i went to airport sending my brother off to ireland.he took d 1st flight to kl.then i met parents someone ni. i tot die xkan suke i.they were soooo nice to me..still supernice to me..really thankful for that..ok saye nak solat asar....

2010-08-23T05:51:00.003+01:00

xsempat nk update blog.internet prob..
saye post call.
saye tgh dlm ot.
saye tgh tgk TURP.
saye kene masuk ot ari ni.
ade 11 cases under spinal ari ni.
dan skrg dh kul 1 and br 2 cases.ongoing 2nd case.
jom bet kul brape i bleh balik malam ni?
1 pg?3pagi or xbalik langsung?
org yg buat ot list ni sangat ridiculous!
anyway saye nak cite..
sejak saye masuk keje kt hrpz2 ade sorang nurse ni yg i always hate and always feel like kicking her ass..
she works in d ot.
she is an old lady with wrinkles everywhere...
she loves scolding people..
it doesnt matter whether u r ho nor mo.
sume akan dimarah..
if u r a specialist,then it will make a difference...
td she was like suddenly dgn rude tolak i,amik bht frrom i
then sebab xde keje nak but die jalan dpn i, i sekat kaki die hoping die akan tersadung n jatuh....the plan works well.tp die xjatuh..

2010-08-14T08:22:00.004+01:00

yesterday was like heaven to me..
i slept like a baby!
woke up at 2pm yesterday..
padahal tdo xdela lmabat pon..1230 tdo after abis men futsal..
owh yeap...thurs nite went off playing futsal with cousins..
sangat contented..
rs kurus tetibe..
wahahha..
nyway i have a stomachache niiii..
dhla oncall.puasa some more..
mmg xlaratlah..
dh la rounds lambat gile abis...
n dh la specialist tu suruh i follow round die sampai periphery...
penattt!
i nak upload gambar thru hset ni to pretty wittty angel tp xbole..
asek failed je..
owh n u know what?i met dr zek last week..
br transfer hrpz2 kot..
xsempat ckp banyak pon..
okie dookie nak rest kejap b4 new case masusk lagi..dh 2 dh acute appendicitis msuk....bosan dh clerk..okie..bye bye.selamat berbuka puasa

2010-08-09T15:41:00.002+01:00

i am in my 4th posting at d moment.time flew by really quick.x sangka dh 1 yr jadi doctor aka kkm's slave...i br pas buat round..then ade this pt ade acute urinary retention..i nak insert cbd..sume mende i amik then ade satu mende tu abis stok.then i mintak baek2 ngan nurses then suprisingly die marah balik kat i cakap doktor cari la sendiri.kiteorg sume penat n sibuk.i was really pissed off.dh la ckp menengking then ckp sibuk n pnat.rs nak pijak2 je. diorg tu keje shift kottt.kiteorg ni keje dr kul 7pg td lagi n will be working for d next 24hrs kot.die keje xsampai 6 jam pon dh penat. dh la vitals pon n reports bukannye diorg buat.student nurses yg buat.camhaisg n for the first time ever i tinggikan suara. i told her' akak saye ni keje turun naik 3 tingkat n dh keje since pg td lagi. akak tu br dtg keje n duduk je dh penat.saye bukannye suruh assist pon. yela suruh assist mesti bnyk alasan. asssist saye boleh buat sendiri.saye nak lignocaine gel je.
then trus blah pg kt pt tu. i tunggu kt situ.masa tu decide dh die x kasi dlm masa 15mins i will document her name n tulis incident reporting. pastuh die nampak kot muke berubh n terkejut kot i tinggikan suara sket dtg la die kasi gel tu. i geram je nak cakap; "u nak ke one day ur father or ur husband dtg i msukkan cbd without lignocaine gel." germ je nak ckp yg tu tapi xcakap la.annoying gile kot...

2010-08-07T08:44:00.002+01:00

dh bersarang dh blog ni..huhu..
actually ive been blogging quite regularly tapi xtau nak post ke x..
tapi rs cam starting from today i nak tulis everyday lah..hehe
at d moment im waiting for my sister balik from kem...
i miss medical...
im in surgical posting at d moment..
i miss to hear "dr ade pt asystole"
"dr ade patient collapse".
i miss doing cpr..
i miss intubating a pt..
i miss defib a pt..
i miss using all my stamina running to get d abg result..
i miss walking like a zombie in a day time for sleepless night in d hospital..
n i miss doing procedures- inserting triple lumen, doing peritoneal dialysis, pleural tapping...
oh god i miss all those...i miss ortho juge...doing an amputation of toes...haha

Hantu

2010-07-09T07:51:00.002+01:00

I was oncalled last night..
at HDW-high dependency ward...
Semalam malam jumaat..
HDW adalah tempat di mana ramai patients passed away...
husband saye penah cite waktu die oncall kat situ, ade sorang makcik tua yang agak tenat tapi still conscious..
die selalula bising2 then ade satu malam ni die diam sambil tengok kat 2 org nurses ni and my husband..
then nurses tu tanye la;
"KENAPE MAKCIK?"
then makcik tu jawab,
"COMEL LAH..COMEL LAH..TAK PUAS MAKCIK TGK"
then one of the nurses tu buat lawak,
"SAYE MEMANG SENTIASA COMEL MAKCIK"
then gelak2.pastu makcik tu jawab,
"BUKAN MISI(nurse)LAH, TP YANG KAT ATAS MISI TU"
terus terdiam sume org n pergi buat keje lain dh. x duduk tempat tu dah.
haha,,
and then last night kan nurses NOTED kat i ade sorang patient 5hrs post extubation yang CT Scan die normal tetibe merapu2 bercakap..
macam was talking to someone and staring at someone...
macam hallucinate la..
then i attended the patient..
he was in the isolation room as we were suspected him to have tb meningitis..
then raseeee semacamm gileeee dok sorang2..
like someone was staring at me..
ape lagii kan..
cabut lah..hahaha
amik blood pon cepat2..
hahaha.:p
then ade satu lagi patient ni...
die masuk sebab septicaemic shock secondary to PD Peritonitis..mata die always staring at something and terbeliak lak tu...sangat scaryyyyyyyyy...
hahaha ape tah merapu..
ok niniteee nak qada tido..

Fakta 1

2010-07-05T14:08:00.002+01:00

Fakta Pertama

Aircond kat bilik adik saye kt atas rosak. So called electrician la kan repair. While was repairing d airconditioner tu, die terjumpe - tukul, gergaji, paku dan x sure amende tah satu lagi. Was left camtu je. Macam org nak pecah masuk ikut atap tapi failed. And i asked my sis, nape x report polis?
"report polis pon macam la dieorg buat something. Didnt do anything pun. Cam dulu rumah kite masuk pencuri then pencuri tu muke nampak gile through the CCTV and yet police x buat papepon.."
Then terfikir kejap, betul jugak kan? tapi mesti ade reason nape diorg xleh catch the pencuri kan?its not easy kan walaupon we did see the thief kat kedai makan kat depan lorong umah kiteorg. Tapi it actually happened few times. Kes2 kecurian kat kedai kiteorg, kat umah nenek and ours satu pon pencuri xdapat ditangkap walaupon evidence ade. Cam pelik jugak kan? Sampai kite ilang trust kat police tu kan?
Then i terfikir lagi, mungkin begitu agaknye some patients n relatives diorg yang datang hospital nak seek treatment tapi kiteorg xdapat treat him instead, he's getting worsen. Mungkin cam tu rasenye kan>same je kan? Mungkin its not as difficult as getting d right diagnosis to the right patient tapi mungkin masih susah kan?well xtau la tapi i do believe they are bunch of great policemen out there cume x jumpe je..=) Papepon thank u police for keep our country selamat walaupon x seselamat IRELAND.